Citation: morphinator. "The Hell of Addiction: An Experience with Morphine (exp29840)". Erowid.org. Jul 17, 2021. erowid.org/exp/29840
I have been doing morphine since I was 12 now I'm 19. At first it was just one every now and then with friends to chill or just to be a little out of it at school. I usually went at least three to six months between eating the morphine pills. But they were way to easy to get just head to the medicine bottle on my mom's dresser take a few give them to friends and have a blast.
Then was the market to sell the pills so I quit doing them altogether for my freshmen and about three months of my sophomore year and just sold every pill I got.
I read an experience report online where they said that dealing is a drug in it's self and they are very right. You get pulled in it real slow and don't really realize it, your expected to have what ever it is you sell and if you don't then the consumers get pissed off. There is also the fact that even if you want to stop selling, but your use to having extra cash for doing nothing so it's kind of hard to get out of the cycle.
I went about a year and a half with no real drugs in me and then it started. I started doing morphine again once or twice a week this time and then three or four months clean and it continued like that until my Senior no more breaks it's once a week at least and some times every day. By this time though I have figured out that if I crush the little white pill and snort it the buzz is twice what it normally was when I ate them.
This drug had become my one true love it was free for me I made at least a hundred dollars a month from sales and stayed in the wonder world of morphine. I had tried pot, coke, and MDMA and the only one that I liked was the rolls (MDMA) but didnít have a steady hook up or the money to really do MDMA much.
So here I am thinking of my addiction to morphine I have been tying to overcome this drug for the past four and a half months and I think I have figured it out it's not the drug that I am addicted to but drugs in general because as long as I have some kind of drug (except pot still can't stand pot at all) I can do with out morphine.
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