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The Real Deal
Heroin
by hydro50
Citation:   hydro50. "The Real Deal: An Experience with Heroin (exp30848)". Erowid.org. Mar 24, 2021. erowid.org/exp/30848

 
DOSE:
  repeated   Heroin

BODY WEIGHT: 220 lb


It is like no other drug. I used to do everything, and I used to ignore everything that well intended people used to tell me about drugs. And for the most part, I ignored the advice because it was almost always nonsense. You know, reefer-madness type bullshit, and gross exaggerations about how pot or alcohol made people see pink elephants and stuff like that. That kind of crap discredited the anti-drug message as far as I was concerned...I knew better, because I used, and none of it happened to me.

However - This does not apply to heroin. Heroin is the one drug where all that shit I read, all of the warnings and anti-drug messgaes...are 100% true. Do not fuck with heroin. It DID destroy my life.

Once I was addicted, I was fucked - I needed heroin the same way I needed air, or water. And mental health ? Forget it. Relationships ? Forget it. Career ? Forget it. There is no way I could use heroin responsibly, as it is possible with other drugs. It is possible to live a decent life, and maintain a marijuana habit, or whatever. Heroin is not like that for me - there is no fucking way to use it responsibly.


Something else needs to be said here about heroin - anybody who says that heroin provides a high that rivals a sexual orgasm...is full of shit and probably never even tried it.

I was destined to find heroin at some point in my life - I was always seeking a new, better high, and had heard that smack was the ultimate high. I knew Id get into it eventually, and I knew that all I needed was someone who could get it - I had to know what it felt like, because of the nonsense I had heard about orgasmic euphoria.

Sure enough, I found it eventually. Does it feel good ? Fuck yes - it does, and its true that the first few times are the best. But as good as an orgasm ? Please...I dont know who these people are, claiming that its orgasmic, and who they are having sex with, because it's not that great...not at all. Like I said, it does feel amazing - I shoot it and its like a wave of peace and euphoria coming over me, both mental and physical. It makes me feel that all is right in my world, and things that troubled me a minute before I shot up, suddenly do not even phase me - I'm unconditionally...happy. I feel good.

But I should have stopped there - it is NOT as good as an orgasm, thats ludicrous. And it doesnt matter anyway, because once I got hooked, there is no more high - I just need the shit to feel normal...I end up needing heroin, the same way I need food, water and air.

The fun is over real fast. And even at its best - the first few times I used it....the initial rush that feels so good, only lasts a minute or two. Then, I just feel happy, and peaceful for a few hours.

Its not as good as you have heard, trust me. The problem is, that once you realize this - its too late and youre hooked.

Exp Year: 2003ExpID: 30848
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Mar 24, 2021Views: 338
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Heroin (27) : Retrospective / Summary (11), Addiction & Habituation (10), Not Applicable (38)

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