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Loss of Everything
Salvia divinorum (5x extract)
by Seph
Citation:   Seph. "Loss of Everything: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (5x extract) (exp36042)". Erowid.org. May 10, 2007. erowid.org/exp/36042

 
DOSE:
3 bowls smoked Salvia divinorum (extract - 5x)

BODY WEIGHT: 240 lb


This is my first experience with Salvia so I put in quite a lot of research before I fired the bowl. I informed my girlfriend of my plans to experiment while she slept. We are both rather experienced trippers, so I didn't feel the need to use her as a direct sitter, but she was just a room away.

In my water pipe, I smoked a small bowl to get a feel for the smoke. Then about 10 minutes later, I smoked another small bowl to try and find a slight feeling of the plant's effect. The smoke is pleasant. The feeling after two small bowls was slightly sleepy but not reflective of the true nature of the later trip.

After an half hour, I darkened my office and relaxed back into a big, reclining leather chair and smoked a large bowl. The dry material ignites easily and burns fast.
I concentrated on putting the water pipe down before exhaling and accomplished that. Then I exhaled, blacked out, and here is what I wrote an hour after:

'Salvia is like falling through yourself and ending up on the other side of everything, naked, strapped to the nose of a rocket, confused and half-heart-filled. ...And then I was someone else's body--in pain--and slowly peeling myself off of that dimension felt like my flesh was ripped off. Excruciating. Yellow. ...The whole while, I remembered something--someone. Her, asleep. SHE is there. Where am I? Who am I/are we? Who is she? She is. She is asleep. Okay...She is... Sally. I am okay. I need her. ... Positive & negative & in the middle where the thing is played out. Life is but one of these swirrling concessions. Love is another.'

The first rush is similar to 5-Me0-DMT, where God's screaming everything at once and I can't remember any questions. Or as another person put it, like an elephant sitting on your head. But 5-Me0-DMT doesn't seem to take you to the same place that Salvia does, which is a full, complete and new appreciation of being within the consiousness of some other thing, without a speck of residual personality left of you to figure it out.

In the experience, I believe I was, for a time, the space between someone's leg and a yellow laquered loveseat. There was a whole history to it, too. A story in there, a lifetime that I was aware of, but not impressed by. I wanted out. Despirately. I started to remember another half to what would be me, and ached with the incompleteness, so I started peeling myself out of the dimension. Meanwhile in the real world, I had leaned forward to dump myself onto the floor. And by 'myself' I mean the simple core of me that could feel: confused, frightened and in a great deal of pain.

I experienced excruciating pain throughout my body throughout the trip. It is perhaps the most complete pain I have ever felt of dull pain mixed with sharp pain both pulsing and remaining constant. Sterio pain surging throughout my body lasting 5-10 minutes. I think that the pain may have manifested from fighting my way out of the surreal environment in search of a touchstone. My other half. Sally.

I began to recognize the small computer lights in the office and shadows and shapes haunted until they became objects. I remembered what I had smoked and hoped that I would not suffer anymore strangeness as I was still raw. So I stayed and calmed myself on the floor until I could climb in bed with Sally. Her sleeping presense helped bring me back around. I got back up and thought about what had happened.

I'm happy that I'd been crushed by 5-Me0-DMT many times, as that prepared me for this most intence 5-10 minutes of my brain's existence. Unfamiliar travellers be warned.
In spite of the pain, I will experiment with Salvia again. There is something real there.

Exp Year: 2004ExpID: 36042
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: May 10, 2007Views: 5,296
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