DOSE:	1 tablet	insufflated	MDMA	(ground / crushed)
	1 tablet	oral	MDMA	(pill / tablet)
	.5 tablets	insufflated	MDMA	(ground / crushed)

BODY WEIGHT:

120 lb

[Erowid Note: While it may be that the substance described is pure MDMA, Ecstasy/Molly tablets and powders are notoriously impure, misrepresented, or adulterated. Ecstasy sold in retail contexts such as festivals or parties often contain chemicals other than MDMA.]
I have rolled several times in the past few years, but nothing like this has ever happened before.
My boyfriend and I obtained 10 rolls from a good friend. Of course, we checked around to make sure other people we knew had taken these pills and had a good time. We got a few glowing reviews and a good price, so we bought them.

At about 9 that evening, we each crushed up and snorted a pill. (I usually don't do this, but I have a couple of times previous, and I find I get off faster- plus we had a lot of rolls. It was one of THOSE nights.) I started peaking about 10 minutes later. It wasn't like all the other rolls I've taken, though. I broke out in cold sweat, my teeth were chattering, I had this awful sense that I had really stuck my foot in it. Less than an hour later, it passed.I mean, the whole thing. No feeling of ecstatic happiness, no chills, NOTHING. Meanwhile, my boyfriend is having a GREAT time. I think, What is wrong with me?

So, stupidly, I swallow roll #2. Seemingly instantly I'm experiencing a very pleasant roll. BF gives me a wonderful massage, I chew on my binkie... I feel very good. A couple hours later I start to feel it wearing off. So I break a pill in half, crush up one half and snort it. This is when things got really weird...

My BF is still enjoying himself. We listen to Yes and Bowie and Aphex Twin, all the stuff I like, and suddenly the music sounds sort of garbled. I start seeing things... I sat down on the beanbag with BF and when I looked down at my hands there were paperclips fluttering out of them and flying away like moths. When I tried to grab them they turned into swarms of tiny black bugs and disappeared. I saw a credit card sticking out of the door frame which also turned into bugs when I tried to touch it. This did not strike me as weird at the time.

I also kept seeing people out of the corner of my eye. When I turned to see who it was, they weren't there. BF would start to say something really stupid, and I would ask him what he was talking about. He would look at me funny, and I eventually realized he wasn't saying anything. After awhile, I could see that the black gnats (?) were crawling all over the walls and me. I was VERY freaked out by this.

After 4 or 5 hours, the roll let me down very easily, and I went to sleep without any problem. BF never had any sort of visuals that night, and neither did any of our friends. So I wonder- is there something wrong with me? I have not rolled since; I kinda suspect there is something loose in my brain. I am confused.

Exp Year: 2004	ExpID: 36178
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Apr 25, 2019	Views: 723
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