DOSE:	2 mg	oral	Pharms - Alprazolam	(daily)
	1 mg	oral	Pharms - Clonazepam	(daily)

BODY WEIGHT:

150 lb

About a year ago many tragic events culminated at nearly the same time in my life. I was diagnosed by a licensed psychiatrist as having generalized depression, generalized anxiety, acute panic attacks, social anxiety, and night terrors. It's all a chain reaction for me. I didn't want to talk to anyone because I was too scared of what they were thinking of me. I didn't want to be in public because I was so self conscious. Because I isolated myself so much from my family, social life, and being outside in general, I would feel more and more depressed by the end of EVERY day.

The enormous amount of depression would cause suicidal thoughts, general hatred towards others and constantly worrying about EVERYTHING. Thats where the anxiety would take its toll. The amount of worrying I would endure due to the depressed state I was in would cause a general anxiety in me. The anxiety would build upon itself day by day until just about every three days I would have an acute panic attack. Also, with the anxiety and depression, every night was hell for me. I would have sadistic nightmares in which I would not wake up. It was a living hell.

The only thing that would prevent me from having these panic attacks was alchohol, bars(xanax), and somas(muscle relaxers). Alchohol and somas would just knock me the hell out so I wouldn't have to endure my poor mental states. The bars, which in years past, I just used them to get high, made me feel legitimately happy. I would feel social, happy, and wouldn't worry about a thing.

Undergoing other treatments, such as SSRI's, and other anti-depressionanti-anxiety medicine; I realized that xanax was the drug for me. It took all of the mental weight on my shoulders... finally I could relax. I am now prescribed to two one mg xanax during the day, one when I wake up, and one for about two to four oclock to keep me social and happy. And I'm prescribed one klonopin (which is similar to xanax but is a stronger sedative and lasts longer) every night for sleeping, otherwise I will become 'depressed in my sleep' and have terrible nightmares or wake up into a panic attack. Xanax and klonopin have really made my life happy and productive again.

Exp Year: 2004	ExpID: 36474
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jan 5, 2021	Views: 1,150
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Pharms - Clonazepam (125), Pharms - Alprazolam (98), Dreams (85) : Not Applicable (38), Therapeutic Intent or Outcome (49), Depression (15), Medical Use (47)