Anger and Depression
Citation:   Easton. "Anger and Depression: An Experience with Methamphetamine (exp38332)". May 21, 2018.

    Methamphetamine (daily)
    smoked Cannabis  
    repeated smoked Tobacco - Cigarettes  
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Methaphetamines...Wow what a drug. I started using ice only a few months ago and today I dont use it at all. Its a fun speed and I thought it was worth a try when my friends wanted me to do it with them.

We were all hanging out at a buddies house and we always got a few things set up before we bumped up. We got some water for 'the drip' ,when the chemicals run down your throat causing you to get more fucked up. We would then get some good music playing, good dank packed in the bong, and ALOT OF CIGARETTES.

This is how it would start. We would then each do a couple lines and immediately up to just a couple minutes after the bumps be tweekin and happy. The first line would be about a quarter gram gator tail line. Yes this is alot but I wouldn't need anymore all night but if I wanted to I could do a couple more I would always do 2 or 3 gator tails a night.

It was usually just 3 of us and we would just hang out for awhile and bond and talk.
It was usually just 3 of us and we would just hang out for awhile and bond and talk.
We would literally just sit in a circle relaxed yet happy and geeked out and just chill and listen to music with the blacklights on and just talk.

Ice isnt very psychadelic at all. It makes me feel really happy, excited, and loving. I can talk to anyone on it and just hang out and I dont give a shit about anything. My expiriences left me when I was tweekin the best that I just felt happy and that the world was a great place. I would talk to my friends about anything and just really let myself run wild and have fun.

I always had a great time on it but slowly it became addicting and it started tearing apart my life. I lost everything I cared about because I didnt care about anything but bumpin lines and smokin bowls of ice. I was constantly angry if I was tweeked out and I had no love for anything or anyone.

My mom saw what was happening to me and called the cops on me when she caught me selling an 8 ball (3.5 grams) to someone. The cops couldn't do shit because that was the rest of my supply but after this expirience I tried my hardest to stay clean. I started attendin NA, Narcotics Anomynous, meetings 4 or 5 times a week.

My life today is meth free. I havent touched it in a little over 2 months. I'm alot happier off of it. I still fuck up every now and then but I was fuckin up daily with ice. Today I smoke marijuana a couple times a week and drink occasionally. Yes I'm not drug free but people understand that I'm not on the hard shit anymore and that what I'm doing now isnt going to kill my personality in the long run. It wont take my life away and make me an angry asshole all the time.

I would stay away from it...Its not worth it...

Exp Year: 2004ExpID: 38332
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: May 21, 2018Views: 1,506
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