DOSE:

repeated

oral

Methamphetamine

(daily)

BODY WEIGHT:

180 lb

My last experience with speed lasted over two months. I had been clean for six months up till that point and then suddenly I was back in the game. It seems thats how it always starts, at least for me. When I first tried speed, I found that certain aspects of my creativity were greatly enhanced. I could draw or play music for hours on end without losing concentration. To me that was too good to be true. And thats exactly how it turned out. After I started doing speed, I did it weekly for about six months before I started quiting. Each time I would quit I told myself it was for good. I had seen all the good and bad aspects of speed and had come to the personal conclusion that speed was purely evil. I saw acquintances all around me get sucked into the same nightmare world I was struggling so hard to get out of. I slipped and fell a few times and my binges would last a couple weeks, until I finally would quit again, 'never to do it again.'

[Erowid Note: The dose described in this report is very high, potentially beyond Erowid's 'heavy' range, and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]
I was successful in quitting for six months, up until my last binge. And that binge took me further than I ever wanted to go. For two months I ingested large continuous doses of meth, orally, by 'parachuting' it. After crashing for a few hours, I would redose by crushing up between 300-500mg, wrapping it in a small piece of tissue paper and swallowing it. Those in my scene at the time, all who mainlined their doses, thought I was crazy. I would do between two and five parachutes a day, not just to stay awake, but to feel the intense rushing that I had learned came along with massive doses of meth.

After only two weeks of binging, I had already lost twenty pounds. I would stay up about five days at a time before crashing. But I would only crash for a few hours before I would wake up and redose. I remember the feeling-like being on the verge of insanity. Wondering why I was spending my life hanging out with criminals who injected meth and smoked sherm all day perpatrating their evil deeds. I'm happy to say that I got away though. I've been clean for two months now and I feel great. I've gotten my shit together and can say that I actually enjoy life now.

Speed is an illusion. It sucked me in with its offers of boundless energy and creativity. When I first got in the game, I really thought that I could be stronger than It. I was wrong. I couldn't beat it, I didn't want to join it, so I left. I got away, and I'm not going back.

Exp Year: 2005	ExpID: 41874
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Feb 26, 2018	Views: 1,782
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