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I Was a Pure Burnout
Methamphetamine
Citation:   now sober. "I Was a Pure Burnout: An Experience with Methamphetamine (exp42777)". Erowid.org. Aug 10, 2018. erowid.org/exp/42777

 
DOSE:
  repeated smoked Methamphetamine
BODY WEIGHT: 140 lb
Detox

First before I get into my use of meth I will talk about my prior drug history. I am now 21 years old and have been smoking weed since I was 14, did ex a few times here and there and mush but those were all something I was able to kick except smoking weed.

But that was about to change on one day my friend had come over he had half a gram of speed and asked me if I wanted to try it. I didnt know exacly what it was and wasnt informed on the drug and was always someone to try new things so I decided once wouldent hurt. Or would it?? After my second hit out of a glass pipe I got this amazing headrush like no other drug it was like extasy x10 it felt amazing. Then as it proceeded to go down I was left with this feeling of well being, alertness and felt I could do anything I wanted I felt more powerfull than anything else. This lasted for about 8 hours then I began to crash and all I could think about was to get more. So me and my friend went and picked up a gram for 80$ that lasted me for about 4 days.

And next thing I know I was smoking about 300$ a week my parents were starting to realize that my grades were getting lower and a significant change in my attitude. I pretty much did not give a shit about nothing except my next high at this point I was addicted but I didnt care. After about 8 months of use I started selling some of my stuff my guitar and amp and pretty much all my valubles which were being smoked away and was left with nothing except the feeling of emptyness and deceit. I used to be popular at school and always was someone that was liked but that changed. I did things to my friends I would have never done in the sober state of mind I borrowed money and never payed them back ect. I started to feel really really shitty except when I was on the drug.
I started to feel really really shitty except when I was on the drug.
I was shaky and paranoid and only cared and lived for one thing, that next high.

Then one day my parents went through my droors and found my glass pipe and a bit of crystal that was left and they kicked me out of the house. I was stuck livin on the streets for about a week then I moved in with a friend of mine who was also a tweeker. I began stealing from local stores and pawning just to support my habbit. I never concidered quittin till one day I smoked some bad crank and it made my chest and heart pound so hard I thought I was about to die I didnt know what to do. I went back home and begged my parents for forgiveness and confessed I had a drug problem. I was sent to rehab for 3 months and had some intense withdrawls and depression.

I am now 2 and a half years sober it took me about a year to be able to once again function normally cos the crystal had my head all fucked up so bad I could barely even talk without fuckin up, it was pathetic I was a pure burnout. Till this day I often crave the drug but will never touch it again it changed my life and I am lucky to be back living at home. If it wasnt for my parents I dont know where I would be today, maybe even dead. It is not worth ruining your life.

Exp Year: 2001-2002ExpID: 42777
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Aug 10, 2018Views: 1,485
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