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Face of Hell
by Asriel
Citation:   Asriel. "Face of Hell: An Experience with Methamphetamine (exp4318)". Dec 24, 2001.

2 hits insufflated Methamphetamine (powder / crystals)


Crystal meth is big club drug in the city that I live in, and it's often as easy to find as ecstasy. It was the only major social drug I'd never tried because I'd heard bad things about it and seen a lot of people strung out on meth. One weekend though, my roommate had some extra and asked me if I wanted to try some. I know from doing other drugs that the state of mind Iím in at the time of consumption has a HUGE impact to how I react to any drug, so I took a day or so to make sure I was in a good mindset. I read up on the effects, checked out the overdosage, and all that preparation drama I always do since I want to be safe when I use any psychoactive substance. Then I went back to my roommate and said that I was ready to try it.

I did the first bump on a Saturday afternoon in my apartment. I only did enough to fill the end of a pen cap, but I felt the effects immediately. The first thing I noticed was a feeling of my eyes getting huge. Then my legs started to twitch imperceptibly, sort of like I was shivering from the waist down. Then I became aware of a quickly mounting paranoia. I was sure that something horrible was going to happen and could feel my heartbeat race up to about 140 beats per minute. I was convinced that I was going to throw up (I was also nauseous as hell at this point) and had this idea in my head that when I did, I would immediately die. I don't know how to describe this sort of paranoia; it's different from any other drug paranoia I've experienced, it's just a general conviction that something bad is going to happen and a feeling of hypervigilance, super-sensitivity to movement and sound. Then I started to get angry. I was roaming the room like a panther with a huge frown on my face, my eyes squinched in a scowl, grinding my teeth like crazy and basically donning the Face of Hell when my roommate asked me if I wanted him to rub my back. I said sure because I figured it might chill me out, but I just kept getting angrier. I felt like I could kill something, like I was so quick and powerful that I could just strangle a man to death. Being a huge fan of the 'love drugs' (ecstasy, marijuana), I can't say that this feeling is one that I'd ever want again.

About twenty minutes after the onset, I felt more in control and vaguely euphoric. I was running around the apartment dancing to music. I still had that feeling of being very fast and agile, but I felt generally upbeat instead of ready to kill someone. When the effects died off about 3 hours later, I did another bump and received identical effects.

I am a firm believer in drugs' ability to improve a person's quality of life. Pot, ecstasy, mushrooms, and even acid I'd recommend to most people because I feel they have spiritual and life-affirming value. However, I feel the same way about meth as I do about cocaine: I have done it and didn't see any positive repercussions from its use. I would not recommend meth to anyone.

Exp Year: 2000ExpID: 4318
Gender: Not Specified 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Dec 24, 2001Views: 40,763
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