So Numb
Cocaine
Citation:   cokeiscomingback. "So Numb: An Experience with Cocaine (exp43770)". Erowid.org. Jan 14, 2021. erowid.org/exp/43770

 
DOSE:
  repeated sublingual Cocaine (powder / crystals)
    repeated insufflated Cocaine (powder / crystals)
BODY WEIGHT: 135 lb
My first experience with Yay (Coke) was around a month ago. I aquired a bag from my dealer frined who instructed me how to prepare and snort the blow. During school I ripped open my baggie and painted my gums with the fine powder. I passed my friend in the hallway and said 'holy shit dude, I can't feel my gums.' I couldn't stop smiling, and I got the cliche 'I feel like Superman' euphoria.

When I got out of school, I came home to an empty house. Perfect. I wanted to take full advantage of the blow by railing a few lines, then go workout. I cut the lines and did a small one. Nothing. I rubbed some on my gums and did a larger line. I definetely felt something good rising with in me. But I wanted more! I sucked a good sized pile before I realized that more than half of the bag was gone. Oh sweet Jesus! I thought,' my heart is fucked!' Then the most intense euphoria came on. My eyes were beaming with light and energy. I felt like a sexual God. I ran downstairs, and went on my trampoline. I jumped for joy in the sunlight of my beautiful backyard, which borders a forest. I had found Eden.

I eventually did work out a bit, and found that cocaine can dramatically improve weight lifting performance and capability.

Then the crash happend. I felt so numb and cold, like freezing to death from the inside out. I layed in the fetal possition on my trampoline until my girlfriend came over and cheered me up. I had been afraid that I would be violent or abusive around her if I was on coke, but I was acting very playful and flirty around her. After an hour and a half, I began to feel emancipated from the tyranical cocaine hangover I was feeling. I haven't used cocaine since then, but I am looking to buy more. I plan to go into an amusement park, rail a line on the begining of a rollercoaster, and enjoy the ride. This may sound foolish and dangerous, but I think it would be worth it. I plan on using cocaine only occasionally, although my dealer claims that this is an impossiblity. He is getting a lot of attention from the rich girls in my school, who are curious about the Devil's Dandruff. I fear that yay is going to make a very big come back, at least in my school. And I really pray that it doesn't become a big part of my life.

Exp Year: 2005ExpID: 43770
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jan 14, 2021Views: 885
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