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Not Worth the Crash
by esa
Citation:   esa. "Not Worth the Crash: An Experience with Methamphetamine (exp44373)". Aug 9, 2018.

  repeated smoked Methamphetamine


It all started with a call from one of my friends that she was with some friends and that she had a suprise for me. I reach their house around 11 pm and they hand me a pipe and show me how to smoke out of it. I enjoyed smoking it. It has this weird taste. We passed it around and smoked all that night. We just occastionally would pass it around.

Now that I look back I realized that I smoked way too much.
I realized that I smoked way too much.
I should've stopped after a couple of hits. I hadnt had many experiences with drugs other than weed and I jumped into smoking glass. When it started to kick in, I started to feel so many thoughts at once and I wanted to share them with everyone. I felt that if I didsn't say what I was thinking, then I would forget it. And occasionally I would stop mid sentence and forget what I was talking about. Everything started to fascinate me. How did everything work? I wanted to know everything. I felt so blissful and happy and loving. I felt like a little kid again learning everything new. I could feel my heart constantly pounding. I lost track of time and the next thing I knew it was 9 the next day and I felt energized and went for a walk. I felt normal but still had the sense of wonder.

As the day went on I started to feel dizzy periodically. I realized that I hadn't eaten for over 24 hours. Yet the thought of food disgusted me. I knew my body needed food but I didn't want it.
I knew my body needed food but I didn't want it.
Just the thought of food made me want to puke. The dizzyness got really bad and I knew I had to force myself to eat. I ate a breadstick and ate it just for substance not for any other reason. As the day went on my stomach started to hurt. It felt like it was in a knot, like when I'm nervous. I didnt feel paranoid, it was just how my body was reacting. I wanted to sit and stay in one place but I would feel queezy and felt like I had to puke, even though I had nothing in my system to puke. I felt light headed and disconnected with everything. Someone told me that I needed to drink water considering I havent drank anything in over 48 hours. The thought of water disgusted me but I knew I had to force myself to drink. My body feels so abused.

I havent slept in four days and in that time all I've eaten is 2 banannas and a breadstick. Its 3 days later and the knot in my stomach never went away and I still get bursts of dizzyness. Ill try to lay down to go to sleep but I'll start to feel dizzy and sick. I constantly feel dirty. My face is really oily and my teeth hurt. I realized that I had a habit of biting my lips and I didn't notice I was doing it. So now my lips are torn and bleeding. I looked up some information and it could also possibly be 'speed bumps'. I can see how people would become addicted just to avoid the crash afterwards.

It was very interesting at the time but defently not worth the next couple of days feeling like hell.

Exp Year: 2005ExpID: 44373
Gender: Female 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Aug 9, 2018Views: 1,317
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