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Wilfully Blind
Cocaine
Citation:   pinky. "Wilfully Blind: An Experience with Cocaine (exp47954)". Erowid.org. Apr 16, 2018. erowid.org/exp/47954

 
DOSE:
3.5 g insufflated Cocaine (daily)
BODY WEIGHT: 110 lb
I knew coke was addictive before using it but I didn't think it would affect me. I didn't associate with coke users because I wanted to protect my privacy. I used cocaine to give me energy and to wake up in the mornings. My dealer was a 'friend' and delivered it to me.

Seventy thousand dollars later, my son found my stash and I came clean about my addiction. I didn't use everyday so I thought I was in control. My dealer extended credit because I make good money. One day he called to collect. I owed more than 20 grand.

I lied to everyone but the biggest sucker was me.

My ears and nose are screwed. My sleep patterns are out of whack. My immune system has been compromised.

An ex-addict once told me that the difference between the pot culture and the coke culture was that the coke dealer carries a gun and will use it.

Exp Year: 2005ExpID: 47954
Gender: Female 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Apr 16, 2018Views: 1,096
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