Citation: Morgan. "Sneeky Drug Causing All Sorts Of Problems: An Experience with Heroin (exp49104)". Erowid.org. Nov 28, 2017. erowid.org/exp/49104
I first tried heroin when I was a sophmore in college. I had a good friend who lived in my dorm and he loved opiates. I stopped by his room one day to smoke a bowl, and there he was, holding a book with brown powder on the cover. I asked him what it was and he didn't tell me at first. I asked again and finally he agreed to tell me, and asked me if I wanted to do some. It was dope. I snorted a couple small lines with him that day, and I felt pretty good. I didn't think it was that great or anything. I remember hating the fact that it made my eyes close. I did, however, love the itchy feeling it gave me. It made me feel so fantastic, all I wanted to do was scratch my body.
Since that day, my friend would get more here and there, about once a week he would pick up 4-5 bags. I would join him and do some with him, and eventually I started buying it myself. I began to like its effects more and more. I never booted it, just snorted. Doing this drug with my friend brought us really close, it made us feel so good, we couldn't help but touch each other and kiss whenever we did it together. Eventually we started dating officially, both knowing that we should stop the drug, but never actually doing it.
I remember when I fist realized I was addicted. I had been doing dope for about 2 weeks straight, and I didn't think twice about it because I had never felt withdrawal before. Well, once we ran out of dope after those two weeks, shit hit the fan. I felt cold sweats, aches and pains all over my body, I couldn't sit still or fall asleep for anything, and I couldn't eat either. The worst part about it was the inability to get comfortable for one second, and the fact that it kept me awake all night, tossing and turning and being unable to stop moving. For anyone who has ever gone through it, they know that it is the worst thing a person can go through. I am still addicted to heroin...I keep a pretty constant supply of it so that I don't have to go through withdrawal. At this point in my life, I usually spend about $150-$200 a week on heroin. In order to afford my habit, I have taken out extra money in student loans to pay for both my tuition and heroin. My relationship with my boyfriend is getting worse...we are both always numb, never really feeling any true emotion. Everynight we see each other, all we do is lines all night. Breaking out bag after bag. It has definitely ruined our sex life - he can't cum when hes high, and since he is high all the time he never wants to have sex anymore. Anyway, heroin is a terrible drug - it snuck up on me and I didn't even realize it until it's too late. Then one day I woke up, without a stash, and I was like, 'holy shit I feel like I'm gonna die'...and that's it. Hooked.
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