DOSE:

repeated

oral

Alcohol - Hard

(liquid)

BODY WEIGHT:

13 st

[Erowid Note: The dose described in this report is very high, potentially beyond Erowid's 'heavy' range, and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]
In fall 2005 I became clinically depressed, about as severly as you can get depressed. And so, after not much thought and no consideration as to how it would affect me, I started a viscious binging cycle,drinking a bottle (either 70cl or 1 litre) a week, crashing, buying more, then binging again to try and counter th crash.

I did this for about 5-6 weeks, until I became too depressed to leave my room, and so couldnt get to any shops to buy any more.
I managed to work my way out of this episode, slowly at first and then picking up speed, soon I was able to leave the house again. Soon after this, I decided it would be nice to have a drink again, so I ventured out round my village with a few old friends. I though 'why not just get a half bottle?', but the local shop had no half bottles, the next size up was 70cl, so I bought that instead.

I drank strieght from the bottle, and had drunk half of it in about 15 minuites, and not really feeling the effects, drank the rest of the bottle.

Bad move - I dont really remeber much after that, but I must have done and said some awful things to the people that I was with, because now, they all wish I was dead. By some querk of fate, I managed to stumble home, and my parents took care of me.

I swore I would never get drunk with friends again after that, but I should have said I would never get blind drunk again.

About a month afterwards, I was still pretty down, and just wanted to escape from it all, I knew it would be stupid to get drunk around people again, but I couldnt resist doing it on my own, surely if I wanst around any one, I couldnt do any thing, could I?
I bought a litre of vodka, and when I was left in the house on my own one friday night (my parents where at a party and my sister was at work) I thought I would get a bit drunk.

Again, I didnt stop at the half-way point, and again I became compleatly legless. I passedc out in a pool of my own vomit, god knows how I managed to be on my side at the time, because I didnt choke to death. My sister came back, and couldnt wake me up, so phoned my parents, they came back, and sorted me out, I have no idea why I wasnt taken to hospital for my stomoch pumping.

I woke up the next morning with the most horrendos hangover ever, and my skin had eruppted in hundreds of blotches, presumably an effect of the toxcicity levals in my blood.

3 months latter and I am still only occasionaly alowed out, and never alowed in situations where I may have the chance to buy more alcohol. I am 16

Exp Year: 2006	ExpID: 54072
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Mar 11, 2018	Views: 1,067
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