Wasted a Year
DXM with CPM
Citation: None. "Wasted a Year: An Experience with DXM with CPM (exp54080)". Erowid.org. Jan 18, 2008. erowid.org/exp/54080
DOSE: |
oral | DXM | (daily) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 103 lb |
Trippen on tripple'c, well that's an understatment for me. I lived for it. It was all I could think about. It took me to a place where I could hide from the insanity that took over my life each day. It gave me love, at least for a while, until it had complete controle over me. It was almost like I was codependant wih a drug. I know that must sound lame but it's beyond true. I could'nt see all the damage it was doing to me, the way I hurt the ones around me that cared.
My 9th grade year it got so bad that I had to use everyday. I would stock up after school so that the next morning I could go totallty trashed. Eventually I could'nt just take 6 or 12 or even 16, I was taking 32 pills and still be making it threw the day...like without dying. I did spend most of my day in the girls bathroom throwing up pink shit. It tore apart my body. I could'nt even eat normal, it burned when ever I ate. When I wasn't throwing up at school I was curled up in the corner.
And I did'nt see any thing wrong with this, I thought it was life. It didn't bother me cuz I could'nt see it. I could'nt see that I was pale and bone thin. My eyes were yellow and it was like the color was gone from my eyes. I'm 17 now and a senior in high school. My friends now tell me that when they saw me before I just looked like the life was drawn out from me. I was addicted.
When my family found out they sent me to rehab for 15 months and I have been clean since. I sometimes wish I could do tripple'c again but I know I would'nt be able to stop.
Exp Year: 2002 | ExpID: 54080 |
Gender: Female | |
Age at time of experience: Not Given | |
Published: Jan 18, 2008 | Views: 12,555 |
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DXM (22) : Health Problems (27), Addiction & Habituation (10), Not Applicable (38) |
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