DOSE:

repeated

insufflated

Amphetamines

(ground / crushed)

BODY WEIGHT:

235 lb

[Erowid Note: The dose described in this report is very high, potentially beyond Erowid's 'heavy' range, and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]
Adderall is no joke. This isn't a report on any specific instance that I took adderall, more of a summary. This drug has done a lot of damage to me, and it definately was not worth it.

I started abusing adderall when I was a junior in high school. I began with low doses every now and then, nothing near an addicts level of abuse. It allowed me to actually get my work done, focus on everyday tasks more, and even started to replace weed as my drug of choice. But unfortunately, after a couple of months, I wasn't feeling a damn thing from the doses I was taking.

I decided to give it a rest for a while and got back to my usual daily intake of 4 blunts to my dome a day. However, once senior year rolled around, I realized that if I didn't have adderall, there wasn't a chance in hell I would pass. I started getting pills from my friend for free, popping them every day in order to finish the incredible amounts of homework the teachers at my highschool assigned. Sometime towards the end of the first semester of that year, I found myself in a perdicament. I had 40 pages of english assignments and history essays to type, around 21 or 22 math assignments, each one around 35-40 questions long (of calculus problems, no less), and about 3 or 4 weeks of homework from all my other classes. I had to some how get it all done in one night. I was complaining to my friend about it, trying to figure out a way to get it done, and he suggested blowing the adderall instead of popping it. I decided to give it a try, and that was the beginning of the end for me. At first I broke up a 30mg pill, split it in two, and blew one of the two piles. About 5 minutes after that first pile was gone, so was the second. I had found the best feeling in the world, and I was craving for more right from the start. It kept going, and I kept doing homework until finally, at 6:45 in the morning, with all but two math assignments done and about 170-200mg of adderall in my system, I was finished.

I don't remember the next few weeks that well, but from then on I was hooked. I started out at about 40 to 50mg a day, which slowly built up to around 130 to 150mg a day. I got a prescription since I actually do have ADD, but hadn't been tested until then. I was living in constant hell, fiending for that rush every waking second, going days on end without sleep. I developed an extreme case of paranoia, not trusting anyone around me, even the few people who I consider to be my true friends. I was in denial about it for a long time, but eventually came to terms with my addiction towards the end of senior year.

Thanks to adderall, I've lost over 100 pounds in two years, still have a rather serious case of paranoia that effects my everyday life, have developed boils and infections on different parts of my body, and almost died during an overdose at the end of a 3 day binge consisting of around 110mg popped and somewhere around 200 to 250mg blown. I honestly don't know how my body, especially my heart, could take all of that abuse, the days with absolutely nothing to eat and only water and juice to drink, and I consider myself lucky to be alive today. All I'm saying is whatever you do, be careful, don't let yourself get hooked like I did. The moment you start noticing symptoms of addiction in your behavior, stop taking it right now. It truly isn't worth it.

Btw, I cut down my use drastically after I graduated and had only blown it about 5 or 6 times all last summer, but have recently began to get hooked again. I'm currently a freshmen in college.

Exp Year: 2004	ExpID: 56033
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Oct 18, 2020	Views: 764
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