DOSE:	repeated	insufflated	MDMA	(powder / crystals)
	1 shot	oral	Alcohol - Beer/Wine	(liquid)
	2 tablets	oral	MDMA	(pill / tablet)
	.5 tablets	oral	MDMA	(pill / tablet)
	.5 tablets	oral	MDMA	(pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT:

117 lb

[Erowid Note: While it may be that the substance described is pure MDMA, Ecstasy/Molly tablets and powders are notoriously impure, misrepresented, or adulterated. Ecstasy sold in retail contexts such as festivals or parties often contain chemicals other than MDMA.]
I'm going to start out saying this first. I've done Ecstasy many, many times, but this time was completely different for me.

A good friend of mine (Lets call him, A) from Baltimore came up to my town to come to one of the local raves we have in this area. He told me beforehand that he was going to try and score some shit to give us a boost while we're getting ready. We were expecting to get a nice amount of glass, but apparently it was really dry.

So about 2 hours later A arrives at my house, around 3:00pm. A comes into my room and he says to me 'So I didn't have any luck with the crystal, but I got a gram of Molly' (Molly is Pure MDMA for those who don't know ,]). This really excited me because I've never had the oppurtunity to do this before. So I got my mirror out and we went and took lines of the molly. These lines weren't very pleasant at all. A VERY bitter drip and burned the hell out of my nose.

It's not at all like Ecstasy in the pill form. It's alot less about physical talk and touching, etc. But more about just being really chill and feeling really damn good. I also have heard that molly produces mild visual hallucinations. Which didn't hit me just yet, but things progressed as the night went on.

A and I left the house to go to the rave around 6:00. I had intended on buying an 8th of mushrooms, but I had no luck. So A and my other friend (lets call him B) were counting on me to find them some good pills. We were there a good, 2 hours before people actually started showing up. A and I were completely feeling great, but B really just wanted to be in the same state of mind as we were.

Around 10:00pm was when more people started coming out. A good friend of mine, C, always hooks me up with great stuff. So he told me, 'Hey, the shit should be here in about an hour, I'll come find you when we're good.' So we waited for a while and here comes C running up to us yelling for us to come over to the pavilion. A and I ended up just starting with 2 pills each. There was not much water around so I had to swallow my pills with beer (yuck). A, B, and I were sitting in A's car. Around 20 minutes later I was already feeling the effects of the pills I took, which is VERY rare for them to come up that fast for me.

What I was feeling wasn't typical MDMA feelings. Sitting in the front seat of the car, I started tripping REALLY hard. It felt almost exactly like a mushroom trip. I didn't know how to take this, because it had never hit me like that before. So feeling that I needed to get out of the car, as soon as I stepped foot on the grass I just felt my feet sinking into the ground. I was feeling all these things that I shouldn't have been feeling. As I was walking outside near the car, I started to feel VERY nauseated. I knew I was going to be sick do I told my friends not to leave the car, that I was going to go do something really quick. Most of it consisted of dry-heaving. I didn't know what to think, I rarely get nauseated off of MDMA, and I have NEVER gotten sick while coming up.

After I did that business, and was done my little freak out mode we continued on our way to the tents and where the DJs were spinning. Not realizing this walk through the field was going to be one of the most intense things i've ever experienced. We were walking and I could REALLY feel the effects of the MDMA coming on quick after I had gotten sick. After A and I taking the two pills each, we realized how amazing these pills actually were. So already rolling face, we decide to go get 3 more. One of which we split in half and took.

I was still tripping mildly throughout the night. Seeing odd patterns on the trees, grass, and sky very often. Later in the night, I was rolling hard as ever. I'd never felt the effects so strong before. I've taken 4+ pills before, but maybe not as high grade as these were. The night just kept getting crazier and crazier. I found myself with ALOT of the negative effects of MDMA use. Jaw Clenching, Biting my cheeks and my lip, because the pacifier just wasn't cutting it. Also something i've never gotten before, my eyes have never actually quivered, but they were going CRAZY. It was really difficult for me to focus on alot of things. But later in the night that wore off. A good 3 hours of the night I was walking around talking to people as usual, but very shakey, and I was shivering alot whilst just standing there, dancing or talking. I wasn't cold at all, but the MDMA has been known to mess around with my temperature ALOT. Parts of my body were hotter than others, it was around 60 Degrees outside, I was sweating like crazy just by standing there and socializing. It was a really odd feeling, but I liked it. Because I had never felt the effects so strongly before.

I was still wondering what the reason was as to why I got sick after I took them. It could have been the beer, or the combination of Molly and Ecstasy that was cut with other ingredients (which there wasn't much cut into it). I went up to the guy were were buying the pills from and I was asking him about what were really in these pills. He told me they were called White Foxy Ladies, on one side there was a woman laying down and on the otherside there was a large 'G'. He also told me that these were some of the best pills he's gotten ahold of around this area. They were 49% pure MDMA, 15% MDA, and 1% Amphetamine. After talking to him, A and I decided to buy one more pill for us to split in half.

I'm still not sure what the cause of my getting sick and tripping off of MDMA was. But I was told afterwards that Molly in large doses can sometimes be somewhat hallucinigenic. As for the getting sick part, I believe it could have been because of the beer, or just the larger than usual dose of MDMA. Or maybe it was the MDA, which I had never taken before. I'm completely clueless as to what caused it.

That night was probably the closest I've ever come to overdosing. I felt many things wrong with me that should have been right while I was rolling. After the 2nd and 3rd doses of the pill, I felt no more nausea.

I felt like I was never going to come down, it was the most amazing roll I have ever had. I felt so connected with all my surroundings, more than usual.

Needless to say, I didn't comedown until around 4:00 pm the next day.

It was definitely a once in a lifetime feeling, I think. It was amazing, but I've also never been so scared for my life before.

I'm only 17, I have alot more life to live. I don't want to mess it up so soon. I don't see myself taking anymore large amounts of MDMA anytime soon. Probably none for a good couple months.

Exp Year: 2004	ExpID: 56216
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 17
Published: Aug 24, 2020	Views: 1,899
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