Cocaine - Erowid Exp - 'I Can't Stop, So I Must Be Addicted'

I Can't Stop, So I Must Be Addicted

Cocaine

by MT

Citation: MT. "I Can't Stop, So I Must Be Addicted: An Experience with Cocaine (exp57747)". Erowid.org. Nov 9, 2018. erowid.org/exp/57747

DOSE:

repeated

insufflated

Cocaine

(daily)

BODY WEIGHT:

130 lb

Coke isn't addictive....NOT

Addiction...thats a strong word. I kept telling myself that I wasn't addicted to coke, yet I kept buying ball after ball. I would buy a ball a day, every day. I would tell myself, 'you don't need it. Your not addicted, you only do it because it's something fun to do.' I recently realized that it doesn't matter why I do it. If I can't stop, then I'm addicted. I've destroyed my nose, I've destroyed my family, I've destroyed my hopes and dreams. I just recently stopped doing coke in hopes to bring back the old me. Oh to be truely happy again. Happy without having to use some type of drug to make me feel good.

Exp Year: 2006	ExpID: 57747
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Nov 9, 2018	Views: 1,125
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Cocaine (13) : Addiction & Habituation (10), Not Applicable (38)

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