My Entire Life Has Been a False Reality
Salvia divinorum (10x extract)
Citation:   Eckstra. "My Entire Life Has Been a False Reality: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (10x extract) (exp57966)". Sep 8, 2009.

1 hit smoked Salvia divinorum (extract - 10x)
I’ve tried salvia once before, and just like a lot of stories I’ve read, nothing happened the first time, but did the second. Before I start I’d like to make it clear that everything described was imagined rather than physically seen, but it felt equally real and strong. I had my eyes shut almost all of the time, and I wasn’t “looking” at anything.

I was alone in my room, no music, curtains drawn, no sitter. I was a little bit worried about doing it solo, especially on my first time (provided it worked this time), but looking back on it there definately was no need and I'd perfectly happily do it alone again. I loaded the bowl with as much as it would take (it’s quite small), lit the jet lighter up and started torching the bowl. Quickly the chamber was filled with very dense smoke, and I got a complete lungful of this smoke. I held it in and started counting to 20, 20 came and I still felt nothing, I was quite annoyed it wasn’t working. I started to exhale and there was a lot more smoke left that I expected, so I stood up on my bed and opened the window. This is when I first felt something strange, but I don’t think I totally noticed it. I breathed out properly, and this is when it really got me.

I found myself repeating a strange word as I fell to my bed, and as I shut my eyes everything changed. For the ten long (or so, it’s extremely hard to tell) seconds that it lasted, I “realised” that the world I had been living in, that version of reality, was entirely false. It felt exactly like when you just wake up from a dream, and realise everything you’ve just done never happened, nothing was real at all. I had finally been released into this black ‘void’, although it had no name, the true reality. It was an extremely satisfying feeling, absolutely everything bad and all worries were just eradicated, and all there was, was me in the void. It was all black and extremely peaceful. The feeling was so strong and true, I didn’t question it for a second.

I would occasionally get random boring thoughts about things happening in the real world, but then dismissed them as part of the false reality, and they didn’t even exist. Then, unfortunately, I opened my eyes. I remembered that I was on salvia, and this ‘awakening’ was false itself, and it was only the salvia. It felt like a sham, but I quickly shut my eyes to carry on with the trip. I didn’t want anything at all from the real world to have anything to do with me. The ‘void’ was so simple and true, nothing like physical temperature for example played a part in it. I wasn’t hot or cold, temperature didn’t exist any more. Anything that was a normal part of the reality we actually do live in, would remind me that it was just salvia making me feel this way, and I didn’t want that.

That’s what I actually felt. It was accompanied by some equally surreal visuals.

I think it must have really hit me as I was falling back onto my bed, because for the most intense part of the trip (before I realised I was tripping at all) I was falling backwards, like how it would feel if you fell onto your back from standing straight up. As I hit the floor I bounced back up, and I made lots of these bounces (I’m pretty sure nothing like this actually happened in real life). It felt like I was leaving a white line trail wherever I went, and these lines formed the edges of squares. In these squares were ‘frames’ from the real world, and like a book being flicked through they were scrolling from left to right. I think I was partly saying goodbye to them at this point.

Each frame was progressing with my heartbeat, which was pounding pretty hard, but it didn’t feel uncomfortable. The trail I was leaving made a series of rectangles, and at the top of these rectangles there was a sort of platform made from the lines, and on the top of this platform there was a woman. She wasn’t anything like how you would think of a woman in real life, she had barely any physical existence, I can remember she was made from the colour white, though, I think she had a completely white head and white hair. The rest of her was an outline. When I thought that I had been freed from the false reality, she was one of the important people in the ‘real’ reality, and along with some other peers, which I never saw but knew they were there, I think they were male, she welcomed me out of the dream I had been living.

Another strange thing I saw was as this white line progressed as it scrolled from left to right along with the frames, I came to a completely white silhouette tree, against the black void. I just ‘saw’ it for a few seconds, then it went away.

Anyway, after all this there was much of the same but far less intense. Very strange images and scenes, for the rest of the trip I think they were in colour rather than just pitch black and completely white, but not really very bright, vibrant colours. Nothing out of the ordinary. I slowly came down and things in the real world started to become a larger part of the trip. After what I thought was ten minutes I got off my bed to check the time and start writing everything down, I was shocked that half an hour had passed. For another half an hour after that I felt quite chilled out and relaxed.

So, to finish, I’d definitely do it again, but next time I think I’ll try and keep my eyes shut for the whole thing. It was really very enjoyable.

Exp Year: 2006ExpID: 57966
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Sep 8, 2009Views: 5,478
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