My Dance With Mr. Brownstone
Citation: Mad Dash. "My Dance With Mr. Brownstone: An Experience with Heroin (exp58507)". Erowid.org. Nov 14, 2017. erowid.org/exp/58507
Fear, excitement, sweat on my forehead even on a cold night... Should I be so scared of something that I want to try so bad? Role up the sleve, look into her eyes, she say: 'dont worry it will all go away in just a second.'
The brownish concoction sits patiently in the barrell of the loaded gun, mr. Brownstone... Hear I come...
She grabs my arm, ties the belt, swabs the skin... Positions the needle, wait, I dont think I shou...
Needle pierces the skin crimson red fills the barrell, my god needles make me nervous... The pain in my head feels unbearable, likely because I'm just so anxious. She pushes down on the plunger... 'this is it' I think to myself... But the words dont quite equal what I was really feeling inside...
She pulls the needle out: 'hows it feel'
To my surprise, I dont feel a thing: 'how long should this take?' five seconds pass by nothing, I notice an annoying pressure on my arm... 'o ya the belt...'
She removes the belt... Oh...my...god... Slowly embraced from behind, warm hands surround my presence, cotton in my ears, someone says:
'hello? Is there anybody in there? Just nod if you can here me. Is there any one home?'
But the sound traveling to my ears echoes off the walls and suddenly I have become comfotably numb...
Close the eyes and there I am, pink, purple, blue, and green swirl like the northern lights, I know where I am, the dark side of the moon. The touch of the soft fleese blanket she lays over me feels like a cloud has dropped from heaven soley to embrace me and take me to flight. Soaring in the sky I even feel the wind against my face, I... Have become comfortably numb. There is nobody, no one, just me and nimbus as we soar through the sky skimming against infinity, I feel no end in sight, and dont care if one is to come, because all that matters is now. Falling through the universe while sitting completely still. Who am I again? O well, it does not matter anymore...the music played on the wings of an angel drifts through my head and slowly becomes reality. Suddenly the lights I see begin to react to the music and I no longer know of my body, earth, people, or even that I should know about it, not an ego loss, but a loss of everything but my new reality, pinkfloyd and dancing lights wrapped in a cloud flying through space. Unreal...
Wow... No words can explain what I went through. I have been using opiates for years, all sorts of psychedelics, and various and assundry pharms. But IV heroin was like nothing I have ever experienced, and honestly I feel as though I had a very atypical reaction, so far everyone I have told this story to has looked at me like I was crazy. I literally went to another world, and was part of it for what felt like an eternity. I was having insane CEVs and it felt much more like ketamine + an opiate. Although I was told it was the best brown to hit the city in over 4 years. I guess I'm lucky I didn't OD. But listening to pink floyd while this happened was the perfect set and I would never IV anything again in fear of ruining the most profoundly peaceful experience of my life, everything I described felt like it was happening, the colors, the clouds, the flying... All of it. The most serene experience of my life, but it was too good. I'm just lucky to have had such a time.
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