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An X Panic From Hell
Ecstasy
by Aiwa
Citation:   Aiwa. "An X Panic From Hell: An Experience with Ecstasy (exp602)". Erowid.org. Oct 5, 2000. erowid.org/exp/602

 
DOSE:
1 tablet oral MDMA (pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT: 145 lb


Ok... this being my second time taking X I was fairly excited by the thought that I would have the same breathtaking experience that was present the weekend before. How wrong I was. I had been told that this kind of X was very stong and knowing that brought on a little apprehension but more curiosity than anything. But the thing was that that night I was short on cash, so being at a rave and all meant water cost an arm and a leg and I was dead broke after E and the door fee. This also brought on a sort of eerie feeling knowing that the only reported deaths on E were from over dehydration and heat exhaustion.

I took the small red triangular shaped pill at about 9:30pm, feeling the euphoric effects about 30 minutes later. It was pretty much the same as before except I was only 5 minutes into the trip and already feeling the effects stronger that the peak of the pill I took before. What happend next is very hard to describe but I'll try my best. All of a sudden I noticed my heart was about to beat out of my chest and I found myself drenched in a hot sweat. Soon I found my mind running with intese thoughts that sent me into a panic I could feel throughout my whole body. Kind of a sharp warm feeling that wasn't pleasant at all. I thought if I stopped dancing and sat down it would go away. I was wrong. My mind was totally out of control, so I got up and headed to the bathroom to splash some water on my face. When I got up I felt a sort of extremely drunk sensation as I tried to walk (oh, and I forgot to add that during this whole time I had extreme jitters and I lost the feeling of what I was touching).

But, somehow I made to the bathroom where I splashed water on my face, then I went back to sit down with my friends who had all consumed the same pill and seemed to be having a great time dancing. Soon this panic passed after lots and lots of deep breaths and self talk, and after I felt drained of all energy and plopped down next to a wall. The feelings that followed weren't exactly unpleasant, but I seemed to keep that state throughout the whole night.

I think E is a great drug, but I'm afraid to do it again because of the bad effects it put me through.

Exp Year: 2000ExpID: 602
Gender: Not Specified 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Oct 5, 2000Views: 13,801
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