It Saved My Life...
Citation: Dave. "It Saved My Life...: An Experience with LSD & Alcohol (exp64637)". Erowid.org. Oct 18, 2021. erowid.org/exp/64637
LSD Saved My Life...
A few years back, I had been diagnosed with depression after a suicide attempt and was put on various antidepressant medications. I took these meds as directed for about 2 years, only to realize they were doing absolutely nothing. Before my stupid attempt at suicide, I had already began smoking marijuana daily and doing many other drugs such as ecstasy, mushrooms and various opiates, occasionally (and no, the drugs had nothing to do with my depression!). Since I had tried mushrooms, they were by far my favorite drug and it made me fall in love with tripping out =D. I wanted something more, and LSD was obviously the next step for me.
Me and my best friend, who I will call 'Joe' from now on, decided to take 1 hit of acid each at exactly 9:00 PM.....Keep in mind that at the time I took LSD, I was still a suicidal and extremely depressed person with a terrible outlook on life, people and almost everything in general. Also, being an experienced tripper on mushrooms and salvia divinorum, I knew the risks of tripping with a bad state of mind, but knew how to control myself....
9:00 pm...Put LSD on my tongue and kept it there for about 25 minutes and then swallowed it. We stayed in Joe's room in his house for the duration of the trip.
10:00 pm...Lights seemed to be brighter, there was a strange static and life about the room and objects seemed to be breathing with a strange pulse.
11:00 pm...I began to see a plaid-like pattern all over everything, strange trails followed moving objects and the pulsing/breathing of objects became more intense. This continued until about 1:00 am.
1:00 am...By this time, I really began examining things inside my head. It seemed like so much chaos was going on in the room...colors were swirling all over everything, objects became strangely alive and very odd hallucinations of demon faces were seen all over, although they were not frightening...this was happening even though in reality it was only me and Joe sitting in a chair in his room with the T.V. on.
2:00 am...I reached my peak here and things became unbelievable. I had a feeling of extreme euphoria surging through my body. All my senses were interconnected with each other and there was so much I wanted to say to Joe about what I was seeing and feeling, but I was unable to form words in my brain. Language, life and sensory seemed to make no sense to me.
3:00 am...I was still peaking, but kind of 'got used to it' and I decided to sit down and enjoy the ride.***This is when the life-changing part occurred***I was sitting and staring off into space watching all these strange hallucinations of colors morphing into each other. I was then able to actually see microscopic life all over. I actually saw germs crawling all over everything, slowly inching along. There were billions of them. This got me to some EXTREME deep thinking and mind traveling. Now I understood why the experience was called a 'trip.'
4:00 am...I was thinking very hard, probably too hard about the meaning of life and death, the future of the earth and humanity, and trying to find answers and reasons to EVERYTHING. My thoughts became overwhelming and I felt my brain pulsing and thumping inside my skull. I then came to a strange revelation that life has no meaning, there is no God, all people are greedy animals that will never learn, and I will never know what it is like to die until it actually happens.
5:00 am...Still thinking about all that was said above, a strange euphoric and comforting feeling came over me again and it made me feel like everything was going to be alright, I had nothing to worry about and life is just worth living. From that moment on, until this day, I have been a happy, very happy and changed person.
6:00 am...The trip suddenly stopped dead in its tracks and I began to doze off.....
The next day I woke up and it felt like a train had hit me. The trip was still fresh in my mind, and I had a whole new and brilliant outlook on life. I learned a lot and had many questions and thoughts that have haunted me my whole life had finally been answered. I love life now.
[Reported Dose: "1 hit of LSD.....9 shots of 80 proof liquor"]
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