Citation: Sir é. "But I Feel So Healthy: An Experience with Oxycodone (exp65022)". Erowid.org. Jul 28, 2018. erowid.org/exp/65022
I always wanted to do drugs. The allure. The glamor. The recklessness and of course the feeling of perfection.
The summer before my sophomore year I smoked pot for the first time. Everything else followed soon after. A friend introduced me to cocaine and red lipstick. I started taking my brother's Ritalin up my nose and soon, crystal meth tore into my head. I felt beautiful, productive, thin, happy..everything.
Soon, of course, my body gave it. I woke up after doing 8 lines of meth and couldn't put a sentence together. I stopped seeing my friends, stopped taking drugs, and became 'clean.'
The 'buzz' of natural endorphins and self-satisfaction led on for about a year and then I discovered opioids.
Oxy and Hydro packaged everything I wanted to feel. There was no crash, it made me feel strangely productive, and it made me feel eager to be with people. I felt no sense of longing. Just pure satisfaction roaring through me like a train wrapped in silk and seafoam. There is no pain, no anger, and nothing is ugly.
pure satisfaction roaring through me like a train wrapped in silk and seafoam. There is no pain, no anger, and nothing is ugly.
I can feel my spine vibrating and my brain firing at the synapse: 'happy-happy-happy'.
I feel like making love to everyone while writing a book and learning to play the clarinet. It is treacherous how healthy this feels.
Wrapping my hair around my fingers is perhaps the best feeling at the moment and I wish someone else were here to wrap myself in as well. I feel it is my human right to push my brain to this point of pleasure.
Maybe I will take a swim.
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