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Had Never Felt Emotion Like That in My Life
MDMA & Cannabis
Citation:   James. "Had Never Felt Emotion Like That in My Life: An Experience with MDMA & Cannabis (exp65211)". Jun 27, 2018.

1 capsl oral MDMA
    repeated smoked Cannabis
The Most Amazing Experience of My Life

It started with a helpful friend, telling me about a substance. That friend is, 'N' and that substance is MDMA. Up until this point, I had only experienced weed, mushrooms, and salvia, but refused to take part in any unnatural drug. However, I soon got over that and decided to watch this video he recommended called, 'Ecstasy Rising'. It changed some of my previous misconceptions I held about the drug, and led me to begin research on it. After extensive reading, I decided to try it. Only molly though (pure mdma). So it was brought up in conversation with a group of friends and one said that he had some molly, I looked at the clear capsule and he was a good friend, so I had full trust that it was molly and decided to take it the first night of the Vans Warped Tour. It takes place in a desert area with lots of flat ground as well as canyons. It was gorgeous.

I had been nervous the whole day since I didn't really know what to expect, and so I had been smoking weed quite a bit throughout the day with my buddies to take the edge off. As well as forcing myself to eat. We drove up to the campgrounds for the show the next day and smoked a bit more when we got there. It was the weed that gives me visuals, while I'm still able to keep mental clarity which is perfect for me.

Then, came time. It was 8:00 pm and without hesitation, I put the pill in my mouth and chased it with water. I was less nervous now that that part was done, but still felt the need to experience the coming up in a more intimate setting than that huge party would have aloud so after sitting for 20 minutes or so, I decided to go smoke another bowl with N in the car. He put on some nice ambient music to set the mood and left the car after we finished smoking, but I decided to stay and enjoy the start of the experience there. So before leaving, he put in 'All of a Sudden, I Miss Everyone' by Explosions in the Sky and I laid back, closed my eyes and waited.

First I could describe how I was feeling, except as really good. Then as the first song built up to climax, this amazing and intense rush flowed up through my entire body and I could hear myself breathing more than I could hear any other sound. I could all of a sudden feel my heart beating along with the music and instantly I felt like the entire world was all a part of me and I a part of it
I felt like the entire world was all a part of me and I a part of it
. Then, I opened my eyes, and the lights from antennas in the distant hills all of a sudden beamed unlike any lights I had ever seen. There was a crescent moon out that could be seen clearly. First it shook back and forth, probably do to the nystagmus (eyes jiggling) but it was still more amazing than I can describe. Especially when I was finally able to get it into focus. I closed my eyes while 2 or 3 more waves went through my body as the music kept playing. N and his girlfriend would open the back door to grab things every once in awhile, but each time there were beautiful red sunset colors beaming around them from the sky, which was growing darker.

Then I suddenly felt the urge to go talk to someone, so I stepped out of the car and walked over to my friends and started talking away. It all just flowed out without me having to think about a thing, and with more articulation than I've ever used. After feeling another wave though, I decided to go lay down in my tent to experience this a bit more through closed eyes. I don't remember much from this, except for opening my eyes to the realization that my limbs would be tightening or my tongue was moving all around the outside of my mouth. Now I know why they call it E-tarted. Then, N tells me I should open up the tent and look at the stars. For some reason I was in an incredible hurry to do this but when I finally did, it was well worth it.

The stars beamed and pulsated unlike anything I could imagine. My breath was caught in my chest and I could barely manage to look at the night sky because I was in so much awe. Then, some friends grabbed me up and took me walking around the campgrounds. I started conversations with everyone and they were all nice, some rolling themselves. After making rounds for about 30 mins. I decided the party was getting too much for me and I decided to go back, smoke a couple more bowls and enjoy the peace until I went to sleep.

There are some things I've got to say though. The waves of happiness I kept receiving throughout the night kept getting better and better. As soon as I thought I couldn't be happier, the next one came and took me to an even higher level of euphoria until I forgot about the waves completely. The night lasted until the morning hours and was easily the best experience of my entire life. I had never felt emotion like that in my life, and it could never be happen again. I'm glad I did it. It helped me work out some problems, and I look at things in a different light now. It feels almost like having a new sense or something.

This is something I'll try again to see what other experiences I can have with it, but only once in awhile. It also helped to be around friends that made me comfortable and knowing what to do in certain situations the drug might put me in (relaxing muscles when they tense up, drink water, but not too much, etc). Overall though, I couldn't imagine going through my whole life without this experience now. Amazing.

Exp Year: 2007ExpID: 65211
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jun 27, 2018Views: 1,102
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