Citation: dopefiendJIM. "Three Years Going Down Three Days Heading Up: An Experience with Heroin & Naloxene (Suboxone) (exp66046)". Erowid.org. Nov 28, 2017. erowid.org/exp/66046
I live in a suburb of chicago and have expiramented with many different drugs... And subsequently had many addictions including cocaine, crack, and others.
I had a friend named 'T' and she was a stripper who used heroin occasionally. I kind of had a 'crush' on her 'I really just wanted to fuck her'. But anyway one day she suggested that we go to the west side of chicago to get some heroin. I didn't really want to but I guess you can say she talked me into it. I told myself that I would only do it once just to try it and then I swore I'd never do it again. We ended up buying 4-$10 bags (each bag containing .2 gram of highly pure shit.) To start off we snorted one bag each. It felt amazing... I knew I was in love from the minute I felt that warm 'blanket' feeling creep across my body. Within the next hour we each snorted another bag.
Well... Throughout the next month I would return to the west side every day to score dope not even considering the thought of addiction. There was no stopping me I was off to the races. One day (after that month of using passed), I went a day without using. I got extremely sick and thought I was going to die. I had diarrhea, was vomiting, had cramps, and was sweating like I was running a marathon. Now I knew I was addicted and thought there was no way I was going to spend the next week feeling like this so I stole $50 out of my dad's wallet and was off to the city.
After only around 2 months of snorting my dope I graduated to shooting. Within a year my tolerance raised from doing 1 or 2 bags a day ($10-20) to doing anywhere from $70 (just to keep me from getting sick) to $300 in a single day.
Well now I was hopelessly addicted, a complete junky. I would do anything to get my dope including stealing from my family, friends, selling bogus drugs, armed robbery, and robbing the corner dealers on the west side (a verrrrrry stupid idea... Not recommended considering I was shot at multiple times). I eventually got kicked out of my parents house and was homeless for around 4 months during the winter. My parents since have then let me come back home because they know I'd never be clean living on the west side begging for change on the expressway exit ramp.
Now I'm on my 3rd year of using. This year I entered my 1st detox/rehab. That didn't work and I've since been in 5 inpatient treatment programs this year... None working for me (although I guess it was because I wasn't 'ready' to stop using.
Well now I am seriously trying to get clean. I am now on suboxone and haven't used in 3 days. The suboxone is really a miracle drug because it prevents most withdrawal symptoms, but the mental urge to use is still there and I am fighting this with every bit of willpower I have. Anyone reading this planning on trying heroin for the first time I only say; I WISH I DID NOT DO IT. THERE IS NO 'ONE TIME' WITH HEROIN. This shit takes over ones brain and doesn't allow one to think of the negative consequences of continuous use. Heroin is the only thing that is on my mind all day long. I dream about it and fantasize and constantly have to fight it... The same as when I was off of it for 60 days (when I was in rehab). I know I have a long struggle ahead of me and I need to fight it at all costs. There is too much at stake.
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