Citation: indy367. "A Familiar Place: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (15X Extract) (exp67590)". Erowid.org. Jan 31, 2020. erowid.org/exp/67590
This experience reminds me of hospital procedures I've had involving general anesthesia. I remember thinking after surgery, still in that in-between place of semi-consciousness, that it all felt familiar and not unpleasant. Sort of like being here in our daily reality is more an anomally than being there.
So I smoked the Salvia with a little pinch if marijuana and I went there. Again.
All I could hear was a loud buzzing/roaring sound, almost like having big seashells clamped over both ears. I started smiling because I'd been so apprehensive about smoking Salvia for the first time; I suddenly realized that the place it was taking me was somewhere I've been so many times. It's a warm, happy, carefree and peaceful place. No worries. I was amused that I'd been afraid. There was a beautiful, bright, white light all around me...like white light reflected off the inside of a clam shell---a kind of pearl-like quality. Then the light began to swirl around me and I realized I was walking [or floating] inside of a bubble. Then there were women walking in circles around me, twirling the edges of the bubble around me like a jumprope. They were outside the bubble and I was seeing them THROUGH the bubble. They were wearing white robes, off-shoulder, like Roman maidens. I got the impression that they were amused with me, like 'You just HAD to try it, didn't you????' That kind of scared me, and I decided I didn't want to be there after all. It wasn't outright panic, but it was definitely serious concern. What I think was frightening was the 'loss of self', the loss of control over that 'self' and how vulnerable it made me feel. I'm used to defending myself in life; there may be helping hands along the way, but never EVER depend on it.
If I kept my eyes shut I lost my sense of self completely. I was being carried along surrounded by people I couldn't fully see in a place so vast it defied contemplation. That infinite vastness, the reality of it, overwhelmed me. It's powerful. It's everything.
When I opened my eyes I could sometimes connect with the real world. I was able to talk out loud to myself, reminding myself that this experience would be over soon and I was going to be all right. At first I couldn't do this, but gradually I remembered what I had done. It kind of amuses me now, thinking back on it--here I am, fully 'other' and my first waking thoughts are those of self-comfort. Talk about being an earth-bound soul, hahaha. What a caveman.
The snatches of reality became longer in duration...until I understood that I was back, safe at home with my feet on the ground. Then everything seemed all right, and the experience fell into perspective. Except for these revelations of how unevolved I am.
I understand what everyone else here has been talking about. I wish I'd tried it the first time with a sitter; I think I would have been more able to relax and go with it a little more.
I wish I'd tried it the first time with a sitter; I think I would have been more able to relax and go with it a little more.
I understand why this plant isn't meant to be used recreationally, and I understand that it's not something I'd need or want to do frequently...although I will do it again. The 'first time' [which I rushed into despite weeks of research] is behind me; now I can wait for a time that feels more RIGHT. I don't know when it will be, but I'll know then. I've read so many instances of people trying to stress that meditation and the 'right time' are so important--they're right.
I'm thankful I was allowed the experience I had instead of learning those things the hard way, with something unpleasant happening.
I'll report again.
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