Citation: Yeti. "Existence of the Soul: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (30x extract) (exp67609)". Erowid.org. Dec 23, 2015. erowid.org/exp/67609
Three weeks have gone by since my first and only experience with salvia, but I continue to look back upon the event quite frequently, as it was an experience that allowed me to transcend my previous physical and mental limits. I am nineteen years old now, and have used alcohol and marijuana on and off since I have been sixteen. I have had several mild panic attacks while smoking weed, so I have always been leery of using psycho actives such as mushrooms, LSD, and salvia for fear of having a bad trip. I had been asked to do salvia several times before, but had always declined because of all the terrifying reports I had read online, “tripping” just didn’t seem like a safe thing for me to do at this point in my young life, I thought for sure I was not mentally prepared to trip, due to basically the insecurities and anxieties of growing up.
So, rewind the hands of time to three weeks ago, a weekend night. I went to hang out with some of my friends who I had graduated high school with, two of them (M and J) had put in on a gram of 30x salvia, and offered some to me and my friend T. T doesn’t like to use anything past alcohol and is strangely enough against the use of marijuana, so he automatically declined and didn’t even want to be in the presence of those smoking the salvia. I told them I didn’t want to do it, but wanted to go along with them to watch them. We called up another friend N, who has a place of his own and asked if we could smoke in his place and in return he would get to smoke for free, he agreed so M, J, and myself ventured on over to N’s house. Once at N’s house, a bong was made and we went up into his room to begin smoking. At that point in time I was only intending to watch them and play the role of “sitter”, but deep down inside my adventurous side was starting to arise. All three of my friends took turns hitting the bong, and they seemed to be having a good time, so I said “what the hell”, and decided to give this salvia stuff a try.
I loaded a pinch of the extract into the bowl, lit it, and took a deep breath. I proceeded to repeat this, and as I was breathing the smoke out after my second hit I began to feel a very foreign feeling in my body. My body felt like it was being sucked backwards by some kind of a vortex, my soul was being sucked to the back of my body, it felt somewhat painful and so REAL. I fell back on the bed and the vortex feeling stopped, I had been sucked into a new 2-d world. I looked over at my friends who were sitting in a row, facing me; their bodies were morphed into a pleasant two dimensional town. I could still tell that they were human beings, but at the same time they were a living, breathing town, their arms created the road through the town, and their other body parts created houses. I stared for what seemed an eternity at the town, and I grew to love it.
My friend M started to get up off the bed, and a piece of this beautiful town was being ripped away, I grew angry and tried to communicate this to him. My voice dropped down to a tone that seemed like the lowest note on a bass guitar. My voice box seemed to be stuck down low in my throat, and every word that I said sounded foreign. My friends started to laugh at this, and I couldn’t find my normal voice no matter how hard I tried. The town had been destroyed and I started to recognize my surroundings, when suddenly I felt as though my soul was drifting towards the back of my body, it was pleasant and much better than the vortex that had sucked at me before. I welcomed this idea, and suddenly I felt that I was in the very back of my body, and I felt like my soul was floating up. I finally recognized the physical separation between soul and body! I was ecstatic, I wanted to leave this shell that I had been living in, and braced myself for an out of body experience, I felt my soul being pulled, and I urged it on, I even told my friends “I’m going guys, see you later”, I said this over and over. My friends began talking to me and every time they would say something, my soul be sucked further back into my body. After what I’m guessing was a minute later I was all the way back in my body, and slowly returning to reality. Time began to make sense to me again, and I had quite the afterglow, I felt as though I had just smoked a bunch of weed, but was no longer hallucinating.
I sat there contemplating my trip, and my friend N began playing around on his guitar. After another ten minutes I decided that I wanted to take another trip, so I took another two hits of the salvia. This time, there was no sucking of my soul, or any sort of “vortex” feeling. Things did not go 2-d either. I sat there, and closed my eyes as N began to play metal riffs on his guitar. The music began to take over, when I closed my eyes I became a fierce mountain Yeti, and the guitar riffs were the soundtrack to my life, every song that N played brought about a new scene in my Yeti existence. The first song I ransacked a village, eating livestock, and killing villagers, it was a bit scary to cause all the destruction but it felt so natural and it was my primitive self, I was an animal. I began running up the mountain with blood all over my white fur, running back to my cave, with my Victory music in the background. I opened my eyes, and was no longer hallucinating, I felt as though the Yeti experience had lasted a lifetime, and I had quite forgotten about my human life, and reality in general. I continued to have the “high feeling” for about a half an hour, and eventually faded back into my normal state of being. That’s one surprising thing I learned, I don’t just snap back to your normal self, it is a fading process.
Overall I have to say that salvia was a highly positive experience for me, and I wasn’t scared or psychologically damaged like I imagined and feared I would be. I learned something very valuable from the trip, which is that the human soul does exist, and it is possible, when in the right state of mind, to recognize that it exists! I was very satisfied, and plan to try out salvia again in the near future.
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