DOSE:

250 mg

smoked

Wormwood

(leaves)

BODY WEIGHT:

220 lb

In my quest for higher knowledge I have ingested and inhaled many a variety of plants, with only a few I have not gotten along with well, these being Salvia divinorum and Wormwood.

So wormwood, why smoke this? I am not sure, I recall reading about the entheogenic properties of the plant and also recall reading somewhere that the natives (to whatever part of the world this plant itself is native) used to chew or smoke this plant substance for visions. I read this and think, 'hey, I'm on board.'

I'm a big advocate now of having relationship with the plant you are taking into your being - I mean, you are igniting and inhaling an aspect of this representation of life, or of consciousness... whether it is plant, animal, or what have you. I feel that there are inherent relational issues that should be respected.

Anyways, I sat down to figure out this plant with this relationship issue in mind. I sat with the crushed up leaf of this plant, kind of tuned in with it, asked it if it was alright that I smoked it - the usual stuff that sounds a bit airy fairy when I talk about it. I received positive feelings inside of me, so I figured that was the go-ahead. I put a pinch into a pipe and took a small inhalation. Held. Exhaled.

Shortly after, and smoothly, I felt a bit of a change of head-space. I tried an internal dialogue with the plant. Not sure if I was talking to myself or the plant, but it seemed to be going alright.

Figured the experience was mild enough to take another few draws off of the pipe, so I did this. Felt a bit more of a head change, a kind of spaced out fuzz. There felt to be alot of distance between me and things, a kind of withdrawing. It was not unpleasant. I kept talking to the plant as the feelings got a bit more intense.

I heard the words in my head 'we've made acquaintance, that is all for now'. I thought, 'wow, okay... I will respect that.'

I set the pipe down next to me, sat there in a one foot here-one foot there state. Looked at the pipe. Looked around, looked at the pipe again, and made a cardinal mistake. I thought 'Shit, I want to see where this is going to go!'

I took a massive draw off of the pipe and BAM!! Blasted with more irrational fear than I had felt in a long time. I jumped up out of my chair and felt like I had no clue what was going on, I paced around my room with a feeling of self inflicted disaster and a feeling like 'I shouldn't have done this'.

I felt terrified, and curiously, I experienced MUCH internal audio from this plant. I felt as if a had turned on a radio, the inside of my head felt like a crossing of different radio frequencies and I had a hard time making sense out of anything I was hearing or thinking.

I left my house and went for a walk to calm me down, but found no comfort.

I eventually made my way back home, crawled into bed, and experienced a horrible night without sleep. Listening to the jumbled voices, trying to make sense out of what was being said, trying unsuccessfully to tune them out, and trying above all to fall asleep - none of which happened for me.

I ultimately feel, a almost 2 years after this has happened, that there is definitely wisdom in this plant, but the feeling I received was not a positive one - the way I experienced it anyways. The plant had an indifferent feel, a demand for respect, a visionary quality, but also had the same overtones as Salvia or Datura. The plant had a heavy male presence, but had that almost sinister vibe.

This is not empirical by any means, just an account of my one time taking this plant. I had not read anything negative about this plant, and assumed it harmless in my naivete.

One love.

[Reported Dose: '.25 -.50 grams']

Exp Year: 2006	ExpID: 68319
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Dec 8, 2016	Views: 6,854
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