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Bittersweet Insanity
Salvia divinorum (10x extract)
by MilitiaMan
Citation:   MilitiaMan. "Bittersweet Insanity: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (10x extract) (exp69253)". Erowid.org. Jan 19, 2021. erowid.org/exp/69253

1 hit smoked Salvia divinorum (extract - 10x)


My state of mind before can be described as calm, relaxed, yet slightly anxious about getting caught, because I did this in my dorm room at college. My body state included no hunger (I just ate lunch an hour ago), slightly cold (window open in winter), and decently tired.

T: 0 minutes

After inhaling, the last sane memory I have is blowing out into the dupe tube. I lay down on my bed, looking up at the bottom of the upper bunk. After some amount of time, I realized that absolutely nothing made sense. I did not exist, or, I was looking at my body, or, more like infinite bodies of mine, like someone took a picture of me from the side and stretched it up and down to infinite, so at the bottom were my heals, and butt, and shoulders, and on top of the infinite distance was my face, and chest.

I contemplated this, at least I tried to contemplate it. Ideas were coming to me and were being pulled away before I could think of them. I remember trying to explain this to myself, and I imagined a little man standing under a huge sky of quotes or idea bubbles, and they would fall down and smack him and fly back up before he grabbed them. I lost my sanity and looked at my infinite series of bodies again and panicked as I tried to figure which one I was, because they all seemed to be different people, or spirits.
I lost my sanity and looked at my infinite series of bodies again and panicked as I tried to figure which one I was, because they all seemed to be different people, or spirits.
As I looked, the bodies kept switching views, and I remember thinking about reading someone say that Salvia gives one a different point of view. I wanted to kill that person!

I could not get into my body, and I could feel that my body was suffocating. (Note that this was not an out of body experience, it was completely different, just a hallucination) Eventually I heard my body take a huge breath after what felt like an eternity of silence. This snapped me back to reality, and I checked the desk clock before I was plunged back in to the Green universe.

T: 5 minutes

I then sat up and I remember trying to get a hold of things, because I thought that I almost died from not breathing. I looked at my window blinds and they were shaking. I said a few things that probably made no sense, and I looked around for someone to talk to, someone to yank me back to reality. Realizing that I was alone (luckily, they probably would have freaked out), I started talking about how it was just me and the desk, and the shirt hanging over my bed. Specifically I remember saying “Just us, shirt, and desk. Just you.” After that I saw the clock again.

T: 7.5 minutes

I don't know why I said “just you” at the end, but for the next few minutes (estimation) I sat staring at my blinds physically, yet in my mind I was hallucinating a complete black vision. I thought I went blind, and I had recovered enough mentally to realize that this was Salvia, not me. So I gave this some good thinking, “Why am I blind, and why did I go insane enough to talk to a desk?” At that point I could see, and I was looking at myself laying on the ground in a desert, and I was extremely skinny. I don't know how long I saw that, but when I was back in my bed I was outrageously hungry, I thought I was dying.
A quick glance at the clock.

T: 11.5 minutes

I turned on my iPod to listen to Jack's Mannequin. Don't ask why, I don't even remember choosing that. I thought it was ok now, so I laid down and shut my eyes. I focused on the beat, and after about 20 seconds in the song, I had completely hallucinated again. I have no memory of this, but after it, my thinking was not being done by me. It's hard to explain that, but it was an auditory hallucination of my “thinking voice”, yet I was confused as to how it was happening. It told me that I was lucky to be sane.

I started laughing uncontrollably at this point, and I don't know when it started, but it felt a long time. I finally calmed down, and I looked up at the bunk bed again. Again my bodies showed up, but I could see where the hallucination was coming from. To any sane person, the hallucination would never be conceivable, but I saw my body repeated infinitely on that mattress, and springs. So I had regained enough sanity to understand the beginning, and I needed a drink of water. I had a glass on the desk so I swallowed once and I felt the water travel to every part of my body over a few seconds. It was an incredible feeling.

T: 20 minutes

I got up, stumbled out of my room, cleaned the pipe with a sponge, and the thoughts came back that I really am lucky to be completely sane, to not be blind, and to live in the USA where we have unnecessary amounts of food in one town, compared to whole African countries starving. I went to lay down again and enjoyed the mild high, along with great physical sensations, like sinking in the bed.

T: 50 minutes

I am completely sane again and only very very mild mental things like memory, and time distortion. Overall, this trip was completely amazing, and insightful. While thinking more about it, I am realizing more personal insights that I came about. At the same time, this trip can only be described with one word: insanity. I have never had a trip like this, and I have tried 5x a few times, 10x two or three times, and 20x once. Wow.

Exp Year: 2008ExpID: 69253
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Jan 19, 2021Views: 360
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