DOSE:		IV	Pharms - Buprenorphine
		IV	Naloxone

BODY WEIGHT:

100 lb

Ok, Long story short.... 3 years snorting Oxy lead to the last year shooting Heroin. Did the whole 'I'm going to get clean' thing twice now, but I love my H and she loves me. A friend once said 'I don't need a girlfriend, I'm married to my dope.' And that's the truth, shooting this shit is a long term committed relationship and the divorce is messy and expensive. My Suboxone program requires a $200US downpayment and $65 each month thereafter. Plus the required counselling sessions at $15 every 2 weeks. Then the price of the meds themselves. 22 8mg Suboxone tablets cost me approx. $160 without insurance. Thats $320 a month. Doc has me at 16mg/day. But that's if I'm working the program the right way.

Naturally, like any junkie I still find a way to get my fix. I usually sell or trade a good portion of the Subs and leave just enough to curb the withdrawal and clean up in time for my next piss test. Now, you read a lot about not being able to shoot up the Subs because of the Narcan (naloxone). But a friend said he did it and it was all good. So here I am Thursday night, haven't had dope since Tuesday morning because I fronted out like 3 bundles and never saw a penny for em. Stupid junkie why did I do that? Last night I did take 2mg of Sub sublingual aka the right way, just to get rid of the cold sweats long enough to sleep. BTW, I tossed in two Flexeril (muscle relaxant) and slept like a baby. I can't stand another night of sitting here with no money and no dope. I figure what the fuck is the worst that could happen if I inject the Sub? I could die? Fuck that, I could die shooting the diesel too, and my life sucks bad enough right now that I don't think I care. Being dope sick blows.

So here I go, I crush 4mg and mix it up, I think it helps to cook it because there is sugar or sugar-like cut that will thicken and it should help separate. I made sure to hit it with a little more cold water to shock it, dropped in a cotton and drew it up. It takes a couple of tries, because it does thicken after I cook it. But if I am patient eventually I get a nice syringe full and a bunch of goo left on my spoon. Similar to cooking up an OC. I roll up my sleeve, tie off and bang it. Waiting...... waiting...... no rush like the H. I fix another 2mg and bang that too.

Ok, now it's hitting me. Definately a more mellow, floaty, stoney type of high. Makes the whole body sort of numb, like when I sleep the wrong way and wake up with 'dead arm'. It's not pins and needles but a true numbness. I'd much rather have 2 or 3 bags of H, but this will get me by. I guess this dispells the myth that you can't shoot these because of the Narcan. I think with the 4:1 ratio of Bup to Narcan, there's so little Narcan, even with going IV, reaching my brain that it's really not an issue. About an hour after shooting the first 6 mgs, I decide to do another 4 just to see what happens. Unfortunately nothing really. Nothing bad, that's a plus, but nothing really good either, no increase in my 'high'.

I guess my summation would be as far as recreational use Suboxone is OK. It'll work, but Heroin is still the best. Also, I still bear in mind the whole Narcan, rapid withdrawal thing. I don't know that I would shoot a Sub if I wasn't close to 48 hours without dope. Or if I wasn't already tolerant as fuck to all opiates.

Exp Year: 2008	ExpID: 70598
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Nov 12, 2015	Views: 9,008
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