Citation: qweqw. "Either My Body or My Mind: An Experience with Cocaine & Cannabis (exp70652)". Erowid.org. Jan 12, 2017. erowid.org/exp/70652
First Time Madness
I'm fairly new to cocaine I have only used it a couple of times before, but I consider myself very experienced with weed and generally feeling smashed. But today was when I actually felt the coke to the full effect for the first time. A life changing experience but not in a good way.
I was really looking forward to doing coke with a buddy of mine. It will be the most we ever had and it was only with two people this time. Burst of happiness with each line we did. It just made life good.
After about 6 lines and a blunt we were going to leave for a movie and it was the most fucked up I ever been. Not in an intoxicating way like alcohol or weed. My thinking became extremely messed up. The weed and coke really fucks my memory. Now skip to the movie theater. We do even more weed and coke right outside the theater. It was saturday night and it was full of people. Paranoia starts to build up and the harder I try to act normal the more difficult it is. When we start watching the movie I can't even describe how I was feeling. I was chewing on nothing for 3 hours straight and I tried to stop but I didn't have control.
I was chewing on nothing for 3 hours straight and I tried to stop but I didn't have control.
I could only operate either my body or my mind one at a time. Whenever I was controlling my body I couldn't think and I lost track of time and the movie. Whenever I was controlling my head I couldn't move my body but I was thinking.
After the movie was done I had a really bad comedown. I was tired and I didn't feel like talking or doing anything. I went home and I still can't figure out what I feel like doing. I had my first taste of real addiction and I cannot imagine the come down if your an addict. I know that coke is one of the worst things I can possibly do. But if I told myself that I would never do it again, I would be lieing.
PS. I'm writing this the same night and I have alot more things to share but I can't put it to words.
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