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Lost in the Language of the Universe
Salvia divinorum (20x extract)
by JDC
Citation:   JDC. "Lost in the Language of the Universe: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (20x extract) (exp73271)". Erowid.org. May 19, 2020. erowid.org/exp/73271

 
DOSE:
1 hit smoked Salvia divinorum (extract)
BODY WEIGHT: 158 lb
This is an account of the first real time I smoked salvia, by real I mean I tried it before 2 months previously but I did not do it correctly I will do my best to explain everything.

The first time I smoked it I did not use a pipe and rather smoked it as a joint I also tried through a homemade beer bong and a poorly constructed water bong, they all just gave me a lightheaded feeling like I just smoked reefer. My friend told me I must have did it wrong or maybe it simply did not work on me. After reading many experiences I decided to try again.

I went to the same shop and bought 1 gram of 20x a small but good quality wooden pipe and some screens. I was told to hold as much smoke as I could for about 30 seconds. I then went to work I was very late and looked forward to go home and try salvia again. When I came home there was nobody in the house. I decided I would try it quickly before my father arrived home. It was about 22.15.

I went into the bathroom and locked the door and put on the shower to distract noise in case I fell around while tripping I believed if it worked this time it would only last about 5 minutes. I put a very small amount about a 12th of a gram or slightly less into the pipe I lighted the pipe eagerly and started to inhale the smoke, I never got a chance to exhale as the room began to bounce and I walked backward this is where the madness begins. I was convinced I would be aware that I was tripping as I had done other powerful mind altering drugs before and I could always remain in control and aware that I was tripping.

This time it was different and almost too amazing shocking fantastic and terrifying to describe. I was suddenly transformed into another reality as part of something huge connected to a bouncing object that almost looked like the shape of DNA or some sort of physical language vibrating with everything nothing looked familiar. I was part of this object and felt something telling me I was always this object but had pretended or chosen to be human but it was all over now
I was part of this object and felt something telling me I was always this object but had pretended or chosen to be human but it was all over now
and was never really real I was now in the true reality I was not happy at all.

I felt like I was a child again in the sense I felt innocent and very confused and felt I deserved to be looked after and I did not want to stay in this place forever. I began to think I'm supposed to be human, I could almost feel I cannot say hear because I began to be aware of other sensations that transcended everything we know as human like touch smell and taste something was trying to tell me I was never really human in the way I thought and that being human was only a very fleeting distraction of the real reality of what I was just a small instrument holding the universe together. I began to be aware of something much so much greater then me.

I tried to speak but the word I tried to say flipped back at me and I was the word I became part of everything my sense of self kept flipping almost rotating the more I tried to control and fight the more confusing everything became as a million strange senses flipped in and out of me.

It sounds great but too be honest it was the scariest experiences I have ever had only because I thought I would be here forever and I have really always been here. That I had created the illusion of reality and have fooled myself into believing I was human when really I was part of this object all along suspended perfectly connected to everything forever. My mind was too powerful and ambitious to be happy being a tiny thread of everything I wanted more maybe that’s why I chose the challenge to become part of the human race. I felt something laughing at me like I was a big fool for believing I was ever human and that humanity was the only existence. It felt more real then life itself beyond real!

I finally began to come back to our reality and I could see through my eyes but was not moving my body I was automated. I tried to move and I could take control but still had no physical feeling. I did not know what was happening I kept saying I am me, am I me? Is this is me again? I was shouting loudly without meaning to I sounded high pitch like a elf. It took about an hour and a half to completely return to normal.
It took about an hour and a half to completely return to normal.


I was amazed I called 3 of my close friends and tried to explain my experience. I was so happy to be alive and felt really blessed to be given the opportunity to be human as if there are trillions of other life particles that’s all lining up to hoping to become alive or born into this world. I felt gifted. It was beyond terrifying but I have no regrets it’s been 3 days since this bizarre event I have a lovely feeling of wholeness but hungry for more discovery.

I feel like I have to change in my life and be simply a nicer person to all around me. I get too drunk too often and get in trouble I have no urge to ever get really drunk I feel I need to take more control over my life. And I want to keep exploring these so called drugs my next mission is DMT….


Exp Year: 2008ExpID: 73271
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: May 19, 2020Views: 558
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