DOSE:

1 hit

smoked

Salvia divinorum

(extract - 10x)

BODY WEIGHT:

200 lb

I have not done any Psychedelics in several decades. An article piqued my curiosity about Salvia, and I did some research and ordered some. Last night I tried it.

It was clear that this was not a drug to be taken lightly, but the quickness in which it wore off was cause for reassurance. I cleared my mind, said a little prayer of protection, and as I did not have a sitter made sure that I had a big mug of water to drop my wood match into so I would not have to worry about fire. I would then lay back.

I figured the low dose,-1/16 gram-would merely be a trial run , and later I would use outside at a quiet nearby park for a bigger dose rather than trip indoors. Boy, was I wrong. My world shattered, right then and there.

Different aspects of the drug 'stacked' upon themselves...into an 'awareness' (and I use that word loosely because Salvia is not like LSD, where I have an experience...I was Inside that awareness, that experience). So, in a place without time, the universe shattered, became a matrix, a carousel, a HUGE loop...and I was stuck on one small chunk of it...it was alive, and moving rythmically, but I WAS STUCK AT ONE PLACE. It went infinitely to the right and left of me, and I got the sense that far far above me they met, and space was warped to accommodate that, perhaps.

Finally, after probably less than a minute but since it was frozen in time it had the aspect of eternity, I started to realize I was on Salvia, hence, self-awareness was coming back. But I was still stuck and also had the weird feeling that all humans could experience what I was experiencing as this universe was ALIVE. And all in my 'head'.

This is where I had a moment of panic. Everything was all broken up, and I desparately wanted my 'pieces' re-assembled. At this point I was fortunate to remember that Salvia wears off fast, good thing too because I wanted my apartment back! So, I focused on merely sitting there, and after another minute or two, became more and more aware of my surroundings. The first thing I did was jump up and grab a spot of Salvia I had on a piece of paper and crumble it up and threw it into the Bathroom. I was just so relieved to have my own little tiny world back, and I did not want to use that drug again. Only 5-10 minutes after trying the drug I was fairly normal.

Will I try it again? Perhaps a smaller dose, but as far as 'learning' anything, all I can say is that the perspective Salvia gave me is that this extradinarily large mosaic that consists of the world is Alive. and perfectly Connected. Rather than a spiritual feeling that other drugs have given me back in the day, Salvia, for me, bluntly exposed the naked clockwork of reality that is owned, piece by piece, by soul.

Exp Year: 2008	ExpID: 73925
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jul 16, 2020	Views: 546
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