Not Really There...
Citation: BlackMetalQueen. "Not Really There...: An Experience with Cannabis (exp74633)". Erowid.org. Sep 19, 2019. erowid.org/exp/74633
It was in July when my trip happened, not too sure of the date, but I was at my boyfriends house. We used to get stoned quite a fair bit together. We both had the same interests in drugs and trying new things which brought us together. When we smoked, we got the really nice euphoric high, finding even the tiniest things funny, just grinning like idiots and buying munchies from the shop nearby and just lying in the grass messing about.
But this time was different. I got this weed off one of my close friends who smokes it regulary so I trusted them. We were downstairs, outside in his back garden, and my boyfriend had rolled two very full spliffs, we smoked them and had another straight after, inhaling lots at a time.
Now at first I was how I'd usually be, really happy, giggly, stupid ect. I sat down at his computer upstairs in his room while he started rolling us another one on his bed. I was singing along to White Rabbit when it hit me. My head was getting heavy and at first I just laughed saying how stoned I was, then I realised I couldn't feel my legs, or my arms, or any part of my body. I tried to speak and all I was saying was gibberish, terror flooded me and I started crying, my boyfriend didn't have a fucking clue what was happening, I tried to stand up and fell over n I crawled to his bathroom n splashed myself with water.
My mind was going mad, I couldn't think about anything properly, I looked at my boyfriend n he was just telling me to lie down, then I stopped being able to understand him, his mouth was moving but his words wern't right, I was convinced he had done this to me. I was shaking and trying to get out the house, I was so ridiculously paranoid.
I was shaking and trying to get out the house, I was so ridiculously paranoid.
It was extremely unpleasant, I didn't have a clue what to do, bear in mind that I also experience panic attacks so this feeling didn't help with them, so I was tripping AND having panic attacks.
My boyfriend told me to lie down, despite my struggling efforts and thoughts he was trying to kill me, which turned out not to be the case. I lay down and the feeling had gone, I felt every emotion come out of me at the same time, I broke down completely. My boyfriend was like 'Are you back then?' n I nodded. Then all of a sudden, it sprang up again!!
I was confused and worried of the feeling I got for the second time and just started shaking violently, my vision went blurred and noises around me didn't make any sense to me.
I eventually came round after speaking to one of my closest mates who brought round a ltr of orange juice to bring me down. I still get the same feelings sometimes when I don't really expect it. But it's quicker and easily controlled. I don't really know what happened with that weed, as all my experiences since with smoking weed have been fine.
I've cut down on smoking it but still enjoy it a lot.
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