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Things Went From Good to Bad
MDMA (Ecstasy)
by Cady
Citation:   Cady. "Things Went From Good to Bad: An Experience with MDMA (Ecstasy) (exp75540)". Erowid.org. Jul 16, 2019. erowid.org/exp/75540

 
DOSE:
  repeated oral MDMA (pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT: 120 lb


Effects of X Mind & Body

When I first learned about MDMA (ecstacy) I knew I needed to try it. Four of my friends and I decided it was time to see what all the hype was about.

I took one pill, a red cherry, and about a half hour later I could feel my body changing. I started to tingle and we all got up real slow, giggling. The rest of my night consisted of singing together in a circle, dancing around the room, and smoking large amount of weed. My voice was much more high-pitched than usual and nothing could break my euphoric happy mood. The next day, I was drained
nothing could break my euphoric happy mood. The next day, I was drained
. I felt like puking, I was shaking, and I was extremely depressed. I kept losing things after I had just put them down, and I couldn't even sleep through the terrible come down.

After this experience I hadn't tried it again until about six months later. This time, it was with people I wasn't as close to at a hotel. This had to be the greatest experience I had ever had. We each took one pill, orange buddahs, and set up for beer pong. After a few games I started to feel it coming onto me. It was kind of hard to breathe, and we were all quiet. We walked outside of our hotel and began touching the walls with great bliss and we could not believe how amazing everything felt. I walked over to a mirror and realized my pupils were my whole eye and thrill rushed through my body. The whole night was an amazing experience.

After that, I began taking it every weekend and soon everyday. These orange buddahs were changing my life, and I could not stop taking them. After taking these rolls two days in a row, I started to hallucinate and the world was a fuzzy blur in my peak. It was the first time colors and patterns were almost frightening. I believe my eyes could have been moving involuntarily very quickly, but I couldn't be sure.

When I started this as my everyday habit, things went from good to bad.
When I started this as my everyday habit, things went from good to bad.
I began to develop extreme anxiety and I lost all lineal concentration. I could take up to three pills and it had lost its magic completely. I no longer felt the euphoric high and my body was deteriorating. The come down did not phase me at all. I weighed 90lbs, from the 120 I used to weigh. I no longer knew who I was without X and I did not know who my friends were. I made strong bonds with people, whom I miss terribly now.

I would not recommend this drug considering the huge risks, and what it does to your mind. I can never see the world the same as I did before becoming attached to x. It was difficult to find out who I was, and is still difficult to perform normally in social situations.

Exp Year: 2007-2008ExpID: 75540
Gender: Female 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Jul 16, 2019Views: 450
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