I Don't Like Feeling That Good Around Others
Citation:   Thizzmatic. "I Don't Like Feeling That Good Around Others: An Experience with MDMA (exp78115)". Erowid.org. Feb 20, 2019. erowid.org/exp/78115

  oral MDMA
Magic Change

Having used ecstacy many times I noticed that the fun has deffinately decreased.

The thing that I noticed the most was that I began popping just to pop and on those times I would go home when I was coming down so I got used to being alone when I was thizzin. Soon everytime I did it around others I felt detached but all the other effects were there. I began doing it by myself at my house and didn't like doing it around others.
I began doing it by myself at my house and didn't like doing it around others.
This became a problem because when you are by yourself there is no one there to tell you not to take any more and one night I ended up taking nine pills in a 2 hour period. The entire time I wanted somebody to talk to but there was no one there and at the same time I didn't want anyone to see me this gone so It made me have a bad trip.

So I stopped for a while then slowly I began again but this time I would only take 1 and I wouldn't tell anybody I was taking it plus I would drink some hard alcohol with it so I could blame any difference they might have noticed on that. My problem was solved except, one time I decided to do .2 of pure MDMA and it had me so gone I did not want to be around anybody.

Now when I look at pure or pills I'm scared to take them because I want to take them in a public setting but I don't like feeling that good around others...when I feel like that I just want to be alone. So E for me has lost its magic not because the effects aren't there but rather because I want to take it to connect to people but it seems now to do the opposite.

Exp Year: 2006-2007ExpID: 78115
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Feb 20, 2019Views: 729
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