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Letter to Myself
Cocaine
Citation:   Bryan E. "Letter to Myself: An Experience with Cocaine (exp78654)". Erowid.org. Sep 18, 2018. erowid.org/exp/78654

 
DOSE:
  insufflated Cocaine
BODY WEIGHT: 215 lb
THE DEVIL’S DANDRUFF

When I’m doing it and having fun
I’ve got no shame
Call it what you want but it’s still cocaine

Nose candy, Coke, Powder or Blow
No party’s going on
Like the one in your nose

I could get it anytime so I felt kinda lucky
It was a phone call away and a little bit of money

When I was introduced
I was told two rules,
Never do it alone
And control it, don’t let it rule you.

I asked, “What about you, you do it everyday”
He said, “Don’t do as I do boy, just do as I say!”

I kinda got pissed, wanted to holler and shout
Now 8 months later I feel what he was talking about

Cause when it puts you 6 feet under it won’t even remember your name.
You’re just another weak bitch,
That it’s claimed

But I told myself “I got this”......Just a little at a time
Just one or two.....hell, that’ll be fine.
But let me promise you this, When you do one line
Getting more and more takes over your mind
One turns to four, and four turns to eight
My heart’s beating fast and I’ve got a headache
Now eight lines won’t do, it just won’t get me by,
So I do a little more, chasing that high

So now I’m 3 beats away from a flat line
I did what I did, so now I got mine
But if things could be different as I look back
I’d promise you baby, I’d start from scratch.

Now it’s 3:00 am and I’m trying to rest.
My heart finally slowed down, 120 at best!



Bryan E. 1-30-2006

Exp Year: 2006ExpID: 78654
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Sep 18, 2018Views: 897
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