New, Vintage, and Signed Blotter Art
Contribute $30 or more and get a piece of displayable
blotter art. These look great framed on the wall !
The First Dance
Methylphenidate & Heroin
by Kitten
Citation:   Kitten. "The First Dance: An Experience with Methylphenidate & Heroin (exp8011)". Erowid.org. Jul 11, 2001. erowid.org/exp/8011

 
DOSE:
40 mg IV Pharms - Methylphenidate (liquid)
  200 mg IV Heroin (liquid)

BODY WEIGHT: 150 lb


After the ins and outs of psych hospitals constrained by insurance benefits (or lack thereof,) it was time to return home. Along the way both ritalin and heroin were obtained and prepared thus: 40 mg methylphenidate and somewhere between 1/8 and 1/4 a gram of our heroin were dissolved and injected.

It is first thing in the morning when I find myself in the embrace of a forbidden lover. One whom I do not wish to repudiate. The intoxicating rush as we come together, the gentle warmth that enfolds me as we embrace, even a bit of longing as we part. She, (and she must be a woman, for only a woman's embrace is both so intoxicating and and dangerous at the same time) holds me, and as she does, I can't help but want to sink deeper into her embrace. But, she is a fickle lover, and too much of an embrace leaves a painful parting as I found out. I could feel the rush immediately, and the pleasure made it feel good to be alive. I had to wake my partner, and share the pleasure, finally I had found a way to truly enjoy sex beyond a brief interlude. The pain response was dulled, but the orgasms were incredible, and they drifted one into another for 30-45 minutes. That by itself is way tempting. But as I said before, the lady is fickle, and I paid dearly for my pleasure -- an incapacitating headache, paralyzing back pain, and the cold, cold emptyness when she left. When she holds me again (and that line having been crossed, I will go back) I must remember restraint, and not let desire cloud my judgement.

However, it may be that she holds the key to addressing and unlocking my past from a safe(?) perspective. In her embrace, it seems nothing is too painful to be addressed and somehow, her warmth seems soothing and comforting enough to tackle the past from.

Exp Year: 2001ExpID: 8011
Gender: Not Specified 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: Jul 11, 2001Views: 98,245
[ View as PDF (for printing) ] [ View as LaTeX (for geeks) ] [ Switch Colors ]
Heroin (27), Pharms - Methylphenidate (114) : Alone (16), Glowing Experiences (4), Health Problems (27), Difficult Experiences (5), Combinations (3)

COPYRIGHTS: All reports are copyright Erowid and you agree not to download or analyze the report data without contacting Erowid Center and receiving permission first.
Experience Reports are the writings and opinions of the individual authors who submit them.
Some of the activities described are dangerous and/or illegal and none are recommended by Erowid Center.


Experience Vaults Index Full List of Substances Search Submit Report User Settings About Main Psychoactive Vaults