DOSE:

oral

Diphenhydramine

(daily)

BODY WEIGHT:

140 lb

I've recently come to accept the reality that I am addicted to diphenhydramine. It all started when I decided to quit smoking weed and using illicit drugs, but then I discovered benadryl. At first i experienced the hallucinations and other crazy stuff, but unlike most everyone else here i was fascinated by it and loved the high.

I have now come to a point where i eat 2 boxes of benadryl a day. I want to quit, but I am so psychologically addicted. But the worst part of all is how this drug has messed up my body and mind. I find the act of swallowing intensely difficult, as if my throat has lost the mechanics to do it. My throat is always filled with mucous. My hands shake uncontrollably whenever I try to do something nimble, such as tie my shoes. I have, on several occassions, found myself losing my balance when walking and falling down like an old man. My eyes take forever to focus on things, and my mouth never has enough saliva. Even worse is that I find myself often having incredible difficulty articulating thaughts into words. It's like my brain is still at peak performance, but i can no longer utlize spoken language. Keep in mind I was a straight A student!

But the worst thing of all is how messed up I've become mentally. I walk around with a knife whenever I go out, I carry a machete in my car, and i have no regular sleeping pattern. I have stayed up for as much as 4 days straight, and slept in excess of 40 hours on more than one occassion. I am in a constant state of paranoia.

I've been doing this stuff a year now, and all I can say is I wish I never discovered diphenhydramine hydrochloride.

Exp Year: 2001	ExpID: 8175
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jul 13, 2004	Views: 4,118
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