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Not Your Reality as You Know It, but Mine
Cannabis
Citation:   PsychedelicStudent. "Not Your Reality as You Know It, but Mine: An Experience with Cannabis (exp83323)". Erowid.org. Aug 18, 2016. erowid.org/exp/83323

 
DOSE:
6 hits smoked Cannabis
BODY WEIGHT: 111 lb
To start I would like to present myself and describe my personality to help you understand my experience better. I'm sorry if it might be really confusing because I have so many things to say.

I'm 15 years old, 5'4, 111 lbs, I haven't used any other psychoactive before, I have been smoking since August 2009, I'm not a heavy smoker about ~ 1 a week. Since I was a little girl I always wondered what this world was, how I am here, how all these people are around me. With time I became more and more into the subject then I tried weed for the first time. I didn't even get high, I did it a couple of times then it hit me, I remember perfectly this life-changing experience; I was with some family friends and we went for a walk and we smoked a blunt (blunt warp and weed). I was walking beside a tree and I started feeling nauseous I looked down then I looked back up at the sky. It was amazing! I opened my mouth in amazement I couldn't stop looking at the sky. I started screaming 'I'm highhh! I'm high!' If only I knew this was only the beginning of my life-changing discovery. As I walked I looked at the trees (I LOVE NATURE) then my friends stopped for a while, for some reason I fell to the ground and I lay beside 2 leafs. I heard everything so clearly, everything was so bright and dreamy. It was beautiful. This is my first time being high, so you know a little bit about how I react to cannabis.

Last night was one of the many life-changing experiences I have had. I will try to describe it as clearly as possible; many things are VERY hard to explain and may not even make sense. I was with my boyfriend (which I am going to call N) and 3 of his friends and 1 other girl. We copped 1g and rolled a blunt. It was 8:30 PM we were in this dark park that had many big tall trees and bushes.

Start: 8:30 PM

We all got into a circle and it was 2 hits and pass, I took 6 hits in total. When I felt high I went to walk around and observe nature. I laid against a huge beautiful tree, I started to look at the sky and I said to myself 'What is life...a dream, a fantasy? How do we know if this is the ONLY reality? My reality is filled with beauty!' My boyfriend called me over so I went, we were leaving the park, we went into his car and left. While he was driving he put some rave music on, I closed my eyes and I left to another world, I had Closed Eye Visuals I saw a purple tunnel and I was in it sinking in then it turned pink. I can always picture things like this but this time I could clearly see every detail and the tunnel formed as I went like a story I never read before. For some reason I was also thinking about how people think I am weird and they have NEVER experienced something like this on weed. I started to see a square that was divided in 4 squares, in each square there was a face (monkey, person, cartoon, and I don't remember the last one). I started to believe that I belong in a rave and that a rave is the place where people will understand me because they feel and see the same type of trippy stuff as I do. While I was thinking that I saw the letter 'F' that was purple and at the bottom of the letter there was some blueberries after on top some yellow hairs, strawberries and coconuts. Right after I saw this I told my boyfriend what I had seen, he was so confused but he is used to me being like this so he understood.

We started talking and FINALLY we were together alone, it felt so right. It was the first time we were completely alone while being blasted, we are usually with sooo many people. I have such a great relationship with him and everything just felt amazing with him while we were talking. His friend came back and we went back to meet up with friends. After that I was basically with my eyes closed the whole time and periodically I would open them and I would notice that in my head sooo many things happened and it had only been a minute. I noticed this from a previous experience I came up with the theory that 'Time is non-existent' and all this proved my point. In this other reality I would be doing so many things it seemed like 15min passed but it had only been 1 minute! That's crazy! N took me home and I went to sleep.

End: 11:30 PM

Conclusions and Warnings

I always wondered why Marijuana affected me this way, I came up to the conclusion that maybe it goes with my personality. In school so many people 'know' me and my nickname is 'Trippy' but they think I take many psychedelics (LSD, Shrooms, Peyote, etc...) but I really don't. I have NEVER tried any other psychoactive, I barely smoke (know that I would have the opportunity to smoke everyday). Many people that understand my way of thinking are amazed at how I can have this mentality (the mentality of an experienced psychedelic user) without ever using other mind manifesting substances. On the other hand, I could do all those other drugs but I feel that I am not mentally and spiritually prepared enough to actually have a 'trip'
I feel that I am not mentally and spiritually prepared enough to actually have a 'trip'
. To me having a trip is a really big deal and it takes preparation, you should know what you are getting into and what the effects of the substance are because if you end up taking it just to get 'f***ed up' then you won't get the best out of your experience maybe even have a bad trip. I completely disapprove of the use of psychedelics for those purposes; I think it should be used to ameliorate you as an individual.

It has affected me incredibly; I am a calmer, nice, understanding person. My friends come to me for advice and even if I have never felt what they are going through my advice always helps them. I still have good grades, I am not lazy, I take care of myself; actually I look like a preppy good girl loll.

All the information I have mentioned above are conclusions I have come up with following some of my experiences while being high of cannabis. I do not know if they are true or not (scientifically).

Love yourself, love others, love the people that surround you and know how to appreciate this earth!

Exp Year: 2008ExpID: 83323
Gender: Female 
Age at time of experience: 15
Published: Aug 18, 2016Views: 1,294
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