DOSE:	0.25 mg		Pharms - Buprenorphine
	repeated	vaporized	5-MeO-DMT	(powder / crystals)
		smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

102 lb

A couple of days ago was the one year anniversary of my boyfriend and I, and I was actually feeling very depressed. I was fixated on my past and what a fool I'd been, constantly becoming obsessed with new things and leaving old obsessions and friends in the dust. I was coming to terms even more with my possible 'tripping problem' and I wasn't even sure if I should trip at all. I have been debating for a while now whether my tripping is still helping me like it used to, or whether it has become more of a compulsion because when I am tripping is the only time I ever feel completely 'right'. Feeling like I might possibly have to give up tripping broke my heart, but I guess I decided that I shouldn't give up on psychedelics, because of what happened later.

My boyfriend (I'll call him D) gave me a tiny Suboxone (Buprenorphine) fragment in order to calm me down, because I kept going through bouts of crying. Because of my incredibly low tolerance to opiates of all kinds, I only took probably around somewhere from a quarter to half of a milligram of Suboxone. I started to feel better (a mild opiate-ish euphoria--not my favorite brand of euphoria, but it helped me from the state of mind I had been in). I began to open up more, talking to him about what was bothering me. I told him more about my worries about tripping. We'd had plans to trip that day to celebrate our anniversary, but it turns out it was bothering him that it seemed like I was so compelled to trip, that it seemed like I had to or else I'd become very upset. Right as we were lying down to maybe even go to sleep, we agreed that we would trip, but with 5-MeO-DMT because by that time it was already about 4AM. This was a couple of hours after I'd taken the Suboxone.

I'd smoked 5-MeO-DMT about 5 times prior to this, but usually wasn't able to get very big hits, and all of these times had been a while ago, when I wasn't as used to psychedelics. We brought out the 5-MeO and our foil. At first, we were only going to do a little bit, so we each put about 5mg on our foil pieces. We smoked this in a couple of hits. After doing that though, we felt especially peaceful and connected to one another, so we decided to do more. D put about 10-12mg on his foil piece and meant to use about half of it and give me the rest, but he ended up lighting the entire thing, so just inhaled all the smoke so as not to waste it. He then couldn't keep his head up anymore, so he lied down. He seemed to be having a good experience, as he seemed very giggly and trippy.

I naturally wanted to have a bigger taste of 5-MeO-DMT as well, so after he 'came back', I prepared about the same amount that he'd smoked (around 10mg). I was able to get all the smoke and hold it in, and it hit me so quickly and powerfully that I could barely hold the foil anymore, but I attempted to take another hit. I think I may have gotten a little bit if there was any more, but after this I was no longer in the same world. Of course it was not the typical tryptamine world, but the sleek, very brightly lit 5-MeO world of 'nothingness', if that makes sense. I've read a lot of 5-MeO-DMT experiences, and most people seem to agree that it's pretty hard to describe and integrate these experiences.

This trip for me was different, more intense and more fulfilling than the other 5-MeO trips I'd had thus far. There was 'nothing', but it didn't really matter. I felt that I was in the presence of a wonderful idea, concept or 'being', but I couldn't really tell what it was. It could have been ego death, but I don’t even know because I wasn't concentrating on anything like my identity or my life-- it all fell away. All I know is that it was so peaceful, it was pure bliss. I was in another world entirely and it was one of the most enjoyable and spiritual psychedelic experiences I have had, though very short of course. Though even after coming down from the main trip, smoking weed sent me back to a similar place for a while afterward. I'm not sure how much the Suboxone had to do with the sheer pleasantness of this trip, but it was certainly interesting and worthwhile no matter what!

D said that he got some audio distortions and had a good experience, and in addition here is something he wrote about 5-MeO-DMT: 'it's a fun intoxicating 2 minute hyperspace voyage without too many 'visuals' but lots of distortions and is pretty.....disorienting. Coming down from it right now, that 3rd hit really got me, until then it was kinda like salvia. (third toke, haha)'

As I said, this trip was two days ago, and today I feel much better than I did before doing this. I feel renewed and I'm finding the humor and beauty in pretty much everything. I'm looking forward to smoking more 5-MeO-DMT with D, and even more so to experimenting with regular n,n-DMT!

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 83974
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 20
Published: Sep 29, 2017	Views: 1,309
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