DOSE:

10 seeds

oral

H.B. Woodrose

BODY WEIGHT:

160 lb

[Note: The letters in quotes, 'd', 'r', etc, are names I removed.]

Hawaiian Baby Woodrose

Ate 10 seeds at 11:40PM. No fancy extraction, just chewed them up one at a time. Tasted nutty but not too bad. Didn't follow any of the many 'precautions' offered online. Didn't scrape the outer layer, didn't soak them, ate a big meal an hour ago. Also, I'm alone, suffering from clinical depression, and I've had suicidal thoughts recently. Constantly. I better not live through this night. Whatever. I'm told I'll puke my guts up soon.

I'm in for a ride. Only 12:10AM. Slightly nauseous. Stomach shakey. Limbs heavy, tingly. Palms sweating profusely. Rest of me cold. Eyes wide. Breathing slightly labored. Sigh alot. Feel like stretching. Hand tremors. Don't feel like typing. Don't feel like doing anything else. Zoning a bit. Oh shit waves a'comin'on.

This shit's legal. Think I'm gonna listen to Those Poor Bastards now. What's that buzzing noise?

Weird shit. Total body mind trip. Only way to stave off nausea is to lay on back, eyes closed, concentrate on feeling nothing. Trip subsides mostly when doing that. Nausea mostly tolerable. Fun all. *

White *

*.

LSA real. Next to LSD. More body trip. Could turn off light. Too much. Fingers feel guided. Type not think. What else to do...........Music seems scary. Not bad. Sweating. Slimey. Good.

Need a friend.

Yawning uncontrolled. Not thinking too deep. Almost afraid to. Fun in general. Weird. Not clean fun like LSD. Crucial. Could be. Schizophrenia.

Rock N Roll McDonalds. Schizo>connect>Wesley Willis now the song in my head. Wave of nausea. Bright lights nausea. Afraid of dark. Only 1:58. Time escaped me.

1:59

OK worth it but scary. Rolled up eye sweat chattering scare.

Companion. Fun. If with friend we'd be puking on each other. Alone I stave off nausea through concentration. I think. Keep mind on leash through typing. Need to lay down and trip alone. Afraid of wave of nausea. Pathetic. What we do. Could go to next level anytime through: music dark movement public.

Wow

Time slow. Rocking in chair. Swivel. Wave after wave. Hasn't been long. Building. Buy the ticket omg. Omg.

Acid taste. Burn a little. White hurts eyes.

Lay down not type puke?

Think

Omg strange peak I hope no more omg trip balls

Lay down can't believe I haven't puked yet.

Weird word people. Not like people. Not one. Negative. Should be dead. Me. Not them. Defect. Me. Bad. Me.

Not bad trip. Negative but mildly. Resigned. Rational. Probably not long to live. Rational. Deserve it. Ruined it. One shot at life. Ruined it. No second chance. No one gives me a second chance. School rejects me. Women reject me. Loser. Outsider. Killer. Of self. Never would I harm anyone. No spree no worries. Just self pwn. No reason not to. Not now I mean. Not bad trip not like that. Keep trying half-heartedly. Give up why not. After all effort exhausted. I try. Don't know how. Bad seed. Bad place. Came from different world. Bad place. Bad dad bad kin. Rednecks. Old-fashioned. Can't escape. Drilled in my head. Need to lay down. Waves. Like myself. No one else likes me. No one gives me a chance.

Need friends don't like people. Paradox. Borderline personality. Need friends at least for needs. Like acid weed connect. Someone to go to shows with me. Not personal friends. Sex too. Need someone. Not talking all that shit.

Wow peak. I think. I keep thinking. Peak. Then more. Wow. Legal. Unpredictable I see that. Nausea in background. Won't do again. Miss acid. Good old lsd. Would love connect. Sad man. College town no connect. Loser. Lets not start.

If I type too much no one will read it all. Need to lay down anyway. Only 2:33. Typing nonstop. Wow

Lay down now..............

Too much....................

Gainesville weird place..............

Lay down dammit.

Memories vivid. White asterisk commodore 64. Taste of 'f'. Good girl good taste. Cry. Cyan magenta. Yellow. Bad yellow. Omg.

Omg cant lay down need to. Now really.....ompeak.strawhairno.

K.

Runny nose why.

2:50now. Layed down. Got up to type. Cuddling 'f'. Memory. 'v'. Need. Physical match. Cuddle. Missed. 'v'. Lady. Good. Divine. Wow.

Vivid.

Over yet please let me go. Wow. Vivid. Can't put the vivid visual on paper. Wow memories real predict the future think 'v' need need. Wow. Tried not to name. Just tripping. Sad sight. No talk. Need.

Not crucial. Sounds crucial. Almost rational. Not suicidal or not.

Fun. Greasy. Gonna pee myself. Get up in a minute. Not really pee myself. Get up but fun. Eyes rolled episode. Seizure or so. Seige. Drop dead. Badass. Ramones. Yeah. Hell yeah. Gonna go pee then listen to the Ramones or NIN burn. Need to download nbk soundtrack good trip music. Regained composure. Peak was scary. Bad good. Short. Not bad experience at all. Reading it was. Not really. Won't do again. Just makes me want real acid. Need connect so bad. Acid pro.

Fun over. Reminds me of those yellow mercades beans. Without need for more. Fun memory sorta. Yellow mercedes. 'r' 'f' chick from denmark. She was cool. Spent $700 on beans in one night, $10 a piece. Fed three people. Denmark didnt roll. Never had. I think. Coolchick.

Can ground, stop memories. Pleasant memories though. Need to pee. Still. 'd', lake worth, light, shop. Not just memories projections. Sound of typing. Annoying. Must stop. Not end of trip. End of story. Trip in waves. Bye bye.

Drift pj harvey whores hustle and the..............

Wow. After I typed all that I went into the most beautiful trip. It's 6:32AM. I'm still tripping nuts it's so rational and beautiful. All the negativity can be forgotten. I can't put it on paper. I got a few videos. I must look wild. I think I'll end my attempt to express now. Just say that the negativity from the beginning may have been due to a bit of an excessive amount . Now that I'm through the excess I'm left with a beautiful fucking god and introspection and beauty trip. I documented the 'peak' on video. Wow. Next time I'll lecture/rant/whatever about the beauty on an audio file.

So I'll sign off by saying the experiment was a success. 10 hbwr equals 10 hits of strong LSD, if I can be so crude as to compare. It's 6:42AM. I'll probably be tripping at the Rollins show in three days. I hope not. I'm going to try and end it now. Not that its bad. Just enough. Thats the beauty. No chance for addiction. The only satisfying drug. Good night. I'm drained.

Through walls...

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 84014
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 30
Published: Apr 29, 2022	Views: 318
[ View PDF (to print) ] [ View LaTeX (for geeks) ] [ Swap Dark/Light ]
H.B. Woodrose (26) : Depression (15), First Times (2), Alone (16)