DOSE:

10 seeds

oral

H.B. Woodrose

BODY WEIGHT:

150 lb

Boomer on HBWRS

I had my second trip on HBWRS yesterday. I have also experimented with mushrooms recently and have had some experiences with LSD, pot, peyote etc. in the 60’s and 70’s.

What I want to share has less to do with the actual hour by hour experience, but more to do with the bigger picture of what these substances have meant to me, in my youth and now in “middle age”. I know I am not the usual writer of an experience report, but I would bet that there are many of us ‘boomers’ out there reading these!

So here goes – First and foremost is, I believe, that psychedelics can have a place in treating intractable depression. Personally, when I am despondent due to that intractable, but not quite suicidal phase of depression, a trip on mushrooms or HBWRS is very therapeutic. I can again “feel” and “see”. I can again become “connected”. I can “see” my faults and also see the beauty and love in my relationships. I have been opened up to the music I love, and can appreciate the hobbies that I spend time in.

Yesterday I listened to Al Green “I’m still in love with you”, and was moved by the power of his message. It made me realize my love for my wife of 20 yrs, and listen to his message in a whole new way. The same with other psychedelic area music like the Beatles, etc. Powerful stuff! Transforming. I’m not saying that what I “see” is totally accurate, or “the truth”. It’s not exactly right for sure, but a “view” of reality nonetheless. I feel this is therapeutic to the extent that I am released from my self-imposed bondage. I could get into all the crap from my past, blaw, blaw, blaw. It’s not relevant. None really wants to hear it anyway, because we all have it to some extent or another. We all may not need psychedelics to help us out though.

These substances should be used with caution. Every trip I have had has involved an experience of “death”. I personally am not afraid of death. I look forward to it. The experience of death is not scary. The death experience with psychedelics can take several forms. Dissociation from oneself is one of them. Being “lost” to the connection of oneself. Others are more of an experience with death “itself”. Being face to face with death.

One time on shrooms I was laying in bed and the world opened up and I was in the voidness of death. Nothingness. I was in “myself”, but myself was not in life. I was still breathing, but that was the only connection to life. Everything else was like how death probably would be. It was a good experience. I’m not afraid of it. Some may not feel real positive about such an experience. I think it is fair to say that one should plan on having such experiences. It seems quite a few of the ER visits people report are due to panic over feeling they are “going to die”.

I feel that the experience one has from these substances has quite a bit to do with the person’s outlook on life. I think the “bad trip”, has more to do with a person’s fears and sense of personal vulnerability than on the particular setting, although chaotic unpredictable settings are almost always a no-no. Anyway – I hope I added something to the experience base. The bottom line – These substances can be used for good. Like any drug, chemical, food, or anything we take into or subject our bodies to – can be a double edged sword. The medicine can become a poison if not used correctly. Peace to all!

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 84942
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 55
Published: Nov 26, 2017	Views: 1,034
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