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No Longer Afraid and Wanted to Change the World
by SanfordAndSomalia
Citation:   SanfordAndSomalia. "No Longer Afraid and Wanted to Change the World: An Experience with DMT (exp85775)". Erowid.org. Apr 1, 2018. erowid.org/exp/85775

  smoked DMT


Lots of DMT

I had taken DMT a few times before, well maybe round 5-10 times, but the last trip I took was the most insane experience I've ever had. I had bought $20 worth and was trying to smoke it out of a bong named Olimar. For some reason I wasn't getting any, so I begged my friend Matt, who was kind enough to add another hit. Again it didn't work, so my friend put in a third hit.

Again I wasn't able to smoke any, so me and my friend had become agitated at this point. He was mad his shit was failing, so he promised to get me high, so he scraped all of the three hits worth from the pipe, plus a lot of resin from previous trips, and put it onto a foiley. He taught me how to smoke off a foiley and I prepared myself mentally.

I asked my friend Alex to put on some Beatles, and he put his ipod on shuffle, the LOVE remix album. So I took the hit, inhaling all of the smoke, ALL OF IT. The last thing I remember before drifting off was my friend Matt saying 'Holy shit, you smoked it all haha.' Then I began to melt. My fingertips got tingly and melted. I closed my eyes, and my soul raised from my body.

My minds eye traveled through this tie-dyed candy colored, otherworldly shaped 50's diner, with images of my dad's face in weird shapes looking at me. I passed by this nice little lawn that was this 7D green, and these weird faces kept smiling at me, very oddly though. The shape of everything is impossible to describe. Then with a flash I began speeding through all sorts of existences. I began spiraling and melting with whatever song was on. At one point I came to this golden aura, that I thought was god, floating in a black void. Then I was at a lawn with a woman holding her hand out to me, but it was as if I was looking at a huge movie screen. She was wearing a nice summer dress and had a beautiful face, a brunette, but her eyes were covered by a black censorship bar. Then I ended up in a real memory of mine from my childhood. I was sleeping, with my head rested on the middle left seat of my parents 98 windstar. the sun was hitting my head and my parents were calling out to me. 'Steee-vennnn, Steee-vennn.' It felt so warm and beautiful and I appreciated and remembered how much I loved my family. Then I was lying in my bedroom during high school, and my friend was at my door asking if I was awake. It was a snow day. Both of those experiences it was as if I was really living them again, from my perspective and everything. Eyes closed, but I could tell what was going on. Then I warped on, and ended up in a void of true nothingness. It felt like forever, and I felt lethargic and kept wondering when the trip would end, and if I'd ever get home. Then in a flash I warped/spiraled back through this weird collage of images, that in themselves were a physical dimension. I remember one part of it was Abbey Road (music must be vital).

I opened my eyes, and was filled with a huge amount of euphoria. I could not believe what I had just experienced. All you need is love was playing on the ihome, and everything in the room was dancing, happily. This collection of coats on a table across from me had turned into the main monster from where the wild things are, and sat up turned to me and was smiling. I tried to stand up, but my friends kept me down and told me to just relax. I had decided that I was no longer afraid, and wanted to change the world.
I tried to stand up, but my friends kept me down and told me to just relax. I had decided that I was no longer afraid, and wanted to change the world.
I realized the world is too great for stupid shit, and that really all you do need is love. I decided then and there that I would go through with making music, and not be afraid of society's expectations. I was so happy and confident that I promised to buy my friend Matt anything he wanted when I became wealthy.

My life forever changed after that. It was like having a near death experience. Now I have no fears, and am fully confident. It's not like the DMT made me a different person, it just allowed me to openly be the person I always was and wanted to be. One warning though, an experience like that could go any way, just make sure if you do it like that put on some good music, and be assured you're gonna like yourself afterwards. I have not done the drug since, thought I badly want to. I think I could become addicted to the stuff, because it was so overwhelming, both in its hallucinations and the following euphoria. For a while afterwards too I was quite spacey, obsessed with thoughts of the universe and love and kinda crazy shit. I mellowed out through the rest of the year, but man I must of put off some of my friends. In retrospect I would liken it to some Native American vision quest.

I have no doubts though I'll change the world for good, and now I see the world for all its beauty and truths, in (trust me if you can) a rational way.

Exp Year: 2009ExpID: 85775
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 18 
Published: Apr 1, 2018Views: 1,425
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