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The Best & the Worst
Gabapentin
by Freddy
Citation:   Freddy. "The Best & the Worst: An Experience with Gabapentin (exp85915)". Erowid.org. Sep 13, 2019. erowid.org/exp/85915

 
DOSE:
900 mg oral Pharms - Gabapentin  
  900 - 1500 mg oral Pharms - Gabapentin (liquid)

BODY WEIGHT: 251 lb


I've been taking neurontin for appx 3 years now. At first it did nothing. After weeks of taking it, it began to kick in. But I wasn't taking it with water, I was opening the pills and mixing them with water...Sometimes 20 at once...Then 15...Then 8. All in about a 2 hour period. I've always been depressed in my life, and this has worked to make me happy and feel alive. But when I run out, I feel scared, horrified, I think the worst thoughts...
when I run out, I feel scared, horrified, I think the worst thoughts...
Like 'why didn't I visit my sick grandma years ago'...'why dont I spend enough time with my girlfriend, what if she died?' those thoughts may seem like nothing to some, but taking neurontin and then running out, and thinking those same thoughts...

I've began to slow down after a couple years of extreme abuse...50-60 a day. I don't know how I didnt die. But I took a chance on my life to experience happiness which I rarely had growing up, or in my adult life. I now take 3 with water normally, then I mix 3 to 5 more with water, which gets me to feel it 10x's quicker.

I honestly wish I'd never have started this medicine. It's a monster if I run out...But its a miracle if I can control my doses. Pure miracle. This drug really makes me feel great...Not so much highhh, but more so happy to be alive and I am talkative, happy, little slow, some diareah from mixing with water, but mostly its great.

I'd recommend if someone never tried it, to not try it. At times I've felt so scared and sick that I've freaked out, drove my car around the local blocks at top speed wishing I'd die. I have no insurance...I still pay $19.00 for 90 of 300mg. My gf got me a discount card online for pharms. Amazingly the shit worked...I get about 70% off just for using their card.

I dont want to be high, I just want to live happy. I am doing that now, but getting back to normal taking these things...Sometimes I slip, but I've managed to control myself because I keep telling myself what will happen if I run out.......Not high, just happy!

Exp Year: 2007-2010ExpID: 85915
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 31 
Published: Sep 13, 2019Views: 467
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Pharms - Gabapentin (183) : Addiction & Habituation (10), Medical Use (47), Depression (15), Retrospective / Summary (11), Not Applicable (38)

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