Citation: BS. "Blue White Nirvana: An Experience with LSD & Nitrous Oxide (exp87417)". Erowid.org. Dec 7, 2018. erowid.org/exp/87417
I would say that I am a fairly experienced psychedelic experimenter. As a rule, I try to experience these chemical compounds with as much of an open mind as possible. One night a few years ago I had a friend fill up a 15 pound tank of nitrous oxide. It happed to be that I had plenty of L.S.D. and decided that I would combine the two and see what would transpire.
I was alone this evening. Early on, within about 20 minutes, I could tell this would be one of those trips that make me really enjoy and makes me marvel at the psychedelic experience. I had a very large custom bed and I laid at an incline on it all night. Throughout the evening I was consuming very large, 25-30 inch balloons every 10-15 minutes. I have a large lung capacity and a knack for holding my breath underwater for a long time so I was getting a great deal of gas in my system during the experience. Generally, in these types of trips I find myself floating at about 20-30 miles above the earth. When I keep the gas coming into my system I stay floating in this unusual realm. When I have to fill up a balloon itís like Iím reaching down through the atmosphere to do so. I wouldnít say that this feeling is exactly like being an astronaut itís more like my subconscious and conscious mind are both meeting in that approximate location.
Iím not sure why, but I almost always find myself in near outer space. Sometimes, my mind leaves the earthís gravitational pull and sometimes it skips along the earthís surface. This night, I was having a much more intense experience then others (I suspect partially because I had fasted for a couple of days before I ingested the L.S.D.). Whatever the case, the visual experience was much stronger than I had ever seen before. I would hover around the sun, head off into deep space, and walk on moons of other planets. I didnít have to close my eyes or focus on anything to have these hallucinations. Once the Nitrous Oxide was saturated in my bloodstream the visions took over and I wouldnít even see the room I was in at the time.
So I'm guessing about 90 or so minutes into the experiment I had that magical trip, that one that leaves you bauling your eyes out, youíre crying tears of joy and a left with profound appreciation and understanding of the universe. Basically, after a very deep and long inhale of a balloon and then another I reached what one might call ďnirvanaĒ. Essentially, my subconscious mind traveled up this stream of blue light at what I could only describe as light speed or warp speed or 200,000 miles a second. Insanely fast. Only it wasnít a stream of blue light. The light beam wasnít a beam at all it was a crystal matrix that was true crystalline in form, the crystals were of symbols and patterns. When I reached the inner core to this white-blue light (lets say it took a half second) I could sense this crystalline code stretched out for hundreds, maybe thousands of miles in all directions. The crazy thing was. All of this code made complete sense. In any direction I focused, all of the code lined up and solved itself. In an instant 500,000 foreign characters simultaneously made complete sense. I donít know how it did. But believe me it did.
I know this sounds crazy but I felt that I had seen the back end code to the entire universe and not only seen it but was temporarily given the brainpower to comprehend and appreciate it. This was by far not my typical L.S.D. experience. I did not just see things. I guess I would say that I temporarily understood some crazy complex alien or cosmic code. I count my blessings often that I was able to have that experience.
I count my blessings often that I was able to have that experience.
After this experience I donít fear death or the future for that matter. It forced me to realize that there is so much more beyond our existence. Something incredible is out there, or inside of ourselves.
Within about 12-16 seconds I came back from that experience floating again above the earth. My L.S.D. experience had just turned from an 8 to an 8000 in a few seconds and then back again. Those who have had similar experiences know what I am talking about. Those who think that all drugs are bad and evil shouldnít knock what they donít understand. I donít want this to come off corny but I do believe in some form of God. I donít put stock in what most organized religions say to believe in. But I do believe that there has to be some sort of higher power. I am not God. But this experience truly felt like I got to read Godís diary for about 15 seconds. I didnít retain any of the cheat codes, or figure out how to win the lottery or anything like that. But there was one thing that did come back with me, that UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, is the most powerful force in the Universe.
COPYRIGHTS: All reports are copyright Erowid.
Experience Reports are the writings and opinions of the individual authors who submit them.
Some of the activities described are dangerous and/or illegal and none are recommended by Erowid Center.