Citation: diabetik420. "Constantly Reliving My Trips: An Experience with LSD & Cannabis (exp87902)". Erowid.org. Jan 20, 2022. erowid.org/exp/87902
I first started smoking cannabis and drinking alcohol at age 15, and experimenting with other substances followed not long after. My first hallucinogenic experience was unknowingly smoking cannabis laced with PCP. It was not an enjoyable experience and I have not used PCP since, although I probably would if it were offered to me for free.
My second hallucinogenic experience was with brugmansia. I drank about 5oz of a tea brewed from 16 flowers. It was a stereotypical brugmansia trip, complete with hallucinations, cops, and hospitals OH MY!!! I have tripped on LSD twice, once in the 100ug-150ug range and once on a 300ug tab. LSD taught me what the point of life is and possibly even saved me from killing myself, but that's a story for another time. Unfortunately LSD is also what contributed most to my HPPD.
My first experience with a psychedelic was not with LSD, however, but with shrooms, or rather a single 1g shroom. I have tripped on DXM three times, once in the first plateau, once on the second, and once in between. I used mescaline once on a very low dose, around 40g of peruvian torch powder. It didn't give me a 'full' trip, maybe about half as intense as would be desired - at most. I have also used brugmansia twice since the horror story mentioned above. Once smoked along with cannabis, and I once ate two flowers. Respectively they produced an odd weed high with visual distortions, and an uncomfortable body high with odd, almost imperceptible, visuals. There was also twice when I experienced visuals after combining cannabis and MDMA. This could be because I combined the two or because I already had HPPD at the time.
My HPPD is not as intense as it was in the 3 months or so following my second LSD experience, when it was most intense. I constantly see 'static,' which is probably the most serious of my HPPD symptoms.
I constantly see 'static,' which is probably the most serious of my HPPD symptoms.
Just a few days ago I tripped out in school because it was raining outside and I interpreted the static as rain coming through the roof. I get afterimages fairly easily, and sometimes objects and/or my entire field of vision seem to shift around. I also sometimes see wierd 'nothings' that disappear as fast as they appear. The wierdest thing about these 'nothings' though is that they are the same color as whatever they appear in front of, have no outline, and no depth, so I don't even know how I can see them! The last HPPD effect that is still with me is closed eye visuals. These are typically a deep blue but I have also seen them in emerald green. Usually they form a rippling wall or shifting blob similar to some of the screensavers on a windows computer.
In conclusion, my HPPD is annoying, notably the constant static -- which is usually only noticeable at night or in the dark - normally I only see it at day if it is cloudy or if I think about it -- but not serious. I even enjoy some of the visuals I get, especially the CEVs. I plan to continue using hallucinogens, particulary LSD - which I love for the reasons in the first paragraph - but always with months in between each time. I also plan to cut back on cannabis smoking since I find it potentiates HPPD, and I will look into if there are remedies for HPPD out there. I will not go to a doctor since my HPPD is not serious and I don't want to hear a lecture about how drugs are evil. And I would like to add, since I've read mental disorders greatly increase the risk of HPPD, that I almost certainly have neurosis and/or depression and/or bipolar disorder and/or something else although I have never been diagnosed since I have never been to a psychiatrist. Also, I have type 1 diabetes and take insulin but I doubt that would be a contributing factor.
Some authors report suspicions that their cannabis has been 'laced' (adulterated), in some cases, presumably with PCP. While this is possible, readers should be aware that idiosyncratic response to the effects of cannabis (usually higher doses) can lead some users to presume their cannabis has been 'laced'. There is no way to know if the cannabis in the report below was adulterated or not. Reports of plant material and cannabis laced with powerful synthetic cannabinoids and other psychoactive substances became more common starting in 2007.]
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