Citation: juanadams. "An Agnostic Experiancing the Spiritual World: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (5x extract) (exp88044)". Erowid.org. Apr 19, 2020. erowid.org/exp/88044
My First Salvia Experience November 2nd 2010
My first try I took a single hit of 5x extract held up by some salvia leaves in a water bong. I felt a feeling that some force or entity had entered the room. I was not alone. The visuals were nothing more then distortions of the floor and such that went along with this feeling that had overcome me from certain directions in the room. I don’t want to say the entity felt evil, but the fact that a spiritual/mystical force had overcome me felt surprisingly dark just because it was something I had never experienced before, and don’t believe in as an agnostic.
Second try about 5-10 minutes later I took two hits in succession of the 5x extract out of a water bong, this time I remember what I read about needing to let yourself fall into the trip, let it take hold. I was in a room with two of my friends sitting near by and the above light on, when I laid back I quickly felt entities all around me where my minds eye was dark. They were telling me to let go, and to come with them, but the light above me and the memory that my friends were near me in the room was pulling me away from them. I had never experienced another entity before in my life, even while on any of the many hallucinogenic drugs I have tried. As I pulled away from the entity and tried to grasp the reality I had left, I felt almost a sense of embarrassment in front of my friends for talking to something that was not there, but at the moment I 100% believed in. As an agnostic this was the closest thing I’ve ever had to a religious experience.
Because the light pulled me away and my friends I decided to give it a third go. I went in a room by myself in the dark and sat on the couch. This time I packed the bowl full of 5x extract and and took 3 huge hits in succession. I laid my head back and let my self slowly drift backwards into this world of hallucination. This time there were what seemed like 100s of entities, maybe representations of my different thoughts and as more and more surrounded me and started talking to me I started to get a bit confused at the situation and what was going on, and through this confusion I decided to try and climb out of the hallucination I let myself drift back into, as I was slowly regressing back to my normal state I opened my eyes. The process of opening my eyes to come out of this seemed to take a much longer time then opening your eyes usually does, the entities swarmed the small crack of light as I was slowly opening my eyes and trying to visualize the real world around me, they materialized as the words they were saying to me. “Don’t leave us” “why would you want to leave us” “you can’t escape this” “even opening your eyes wont stop us from forming” “why leave, they are never going to believe you” “they are never going to believe you” and as I finally opened my eyes these words stretched larger and larger to finally form the images of what was in front of me.
What these stretched words were slowly forming seemed at the time the only information these entities were giving me about this world. It felt like this room was a locked image, like I couldn’t move and what I saw was all that existed at the moment. At this point I was pretty fearful and I called my friends over because I hadn’t realized exactly what was going on, I thought maybe they could rid these spirits, or would know a way to fix what was going on. I continually just said the word “Please” “Please, please, please, please” It wasn’t like a bad acid trip where you knew what was going on and just wanted it to stop, I was so puzzled. I finally realized what I had done and snapped at my friends to get away so I could just sit there and sort out what was going on, and believe me my brain was still a mess of thoughts that I cant even describe in words. It would be like trying to explain to a blind man what a color looked like. After about another 3 minutes things finally came back to normal in my brain and I apologized to my friends.
Although the overall experience at the time felt negative due to the confusion. I don't find that I could call this type of trip good or bad. But it was definitely something I'm glad I tried.
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