DOSE:

repeated

IV

Hydromorphone

BODY WEIGHT:

128 lb

I use to live a life to die for, everything a normal seventeen year old could ask for I had... Beautiful girlfriend, loving parents and siblings, money, and an enjoyable life. This all changed on my seventeenth birthday when I first injected Dilaudid.

I remember I was nervous for my birthday I was close to 18, I'd be an adult in a year. I wasn't a very responsible person and living on my own sounded horrible. Not having any support financially and in general would suck. I began to grow very nervous and anxious thinking about all these thoughts of 'growing up' so I did what I normally did and looked for some substance to alter my perception so I wouldn't have to think of this situation. Opiates were my drug of choice usually I would take 120mg of morphine, but I was introduced to Dilaudid. I remember the first time I took it, it felt like a weight was taken from my body and I was left feeling no emotions. That to me was the perfect drug, I wanted more though.

That day on my birthday I scored a 4MG Yellow dilaudid, this to me was an extremely low dose and I knew it wouldn't do anything. I thought about shooting up the drug, I always heard it was better then a orgasm and out of this world. I remember I had a friend with diabetes so I acquired a 50 unit insulin syringe. I cut the bottom of a soda can out and crushed the 4MG pill in the 'cooker' then added 50 units of water and cooked it. I was left with a clear solution with a hint of yellow. I was very nervous about shooting myself up but decided to be a man about things. I lied down on the grass field then laid my left arm totally flat and pushed the needle right into my main vein in the crease of my elbow. I automatically began to see blood drip into the syringe, I pulled black the plunger and a trickle of blood shot into the syringe in such a beautiful manner. I slowly pushed down the plunger and saw the solution disappear into my circularity system.

I waited for two seconds and looked into the beautiful blue summer sky, all of sudden I was struck with a tingle that started by my lower back and then the feeling devoured my whole body. It was like I just had the biggest orgasm of my life. I sat there in awe, clenching my shirt with my hands. I slowly got up and began walking home. I got home and turned on some very peaceful electronic music with a slow but amazing beat. I was so loaded and didn't have a care in the world. Little did I know this would be the straw that broke the camels back so to say.

Fast forward three months forward, I am currently kicked out of my house, don't have a girlfriend, and also do not attend school.

This substance Dilaudid has taken everything I once loved from me, including my soul. When I start to feel any emotions I automatically go into full blown craziness. I cannot cope with reality one bit, I am always looking for my next fix . I haven't bought any items or food for myself in the past two months. I've wasted all my money on Dilaudid, I usually spend to $40 to $120 a day on this amazing yet evil substance. I get this money by panhandling and selling items I once held as prized possessions.

One thing I am proud of is the fact I have not shared needles with anyone. Although I could see this happening if I was desperate enough. The morale of this story is to please use things in moderation, or if you go against that just be prepared for things to take a turn for the worse.

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 88434
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 17
Published: Jan 22, 2015	Views: 6,993
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