Citation: gamma hurts body. "Demons: An Experience with GBL (exp88485)". Erowid.org. Jun 17, 2021. erowid.org/exp/88485
I donít know how much time I have left. Iím in fear for my life. On top of my round the clock 2-3 hrs, 8ml doses of GBL Iím sure to die from the withdrawal effects if I stop. I was working the other day and in order to ease the comedown after 5 hrs. of not using GBL, I ingested 3 Sudafed 60mg caps and 5, 12.8mg codeine and ibuprofen tabs. The result was not good at work. I sweated profusely, my heart rate rose to 210 b.p.m not good for customer service lol. I had pains in my left arm, neck and back.
So Iíve decided to keep dosing myself with GBL whilst I wait for my baclofen/Zoloft mix that I was prescribed to come in from the States. I cannot taper off it I have tried and failed over the last 2 months. I may die but at least Iíll die happy so to speak with minimal anxiety and withdrawal effects. GBL has high levels of sodium in it causing heart failure and shut down of organs, I suspect my liver and kidneys (due to having to go to the toilet all the time and constantly feeling dehydrated). I'm too scared to tell anyone and hopefully can sort this out myself before itís too late. I love my girlfriend and my family and Iím so sorry for putting them all through this hell. I will eat low fat and low sodium and protein based foods in order to hopefully minimise the irreversible damage I have done to my kidneys. I asked my girlfriend to buy vegetables, fruit, wholegrain and wholemeal carbohydrates. Maybe this will help while I battle my demons.
The TV is now making sounds and images even when I'm not watching it. Iím hallucinating both audibly and visually. What the fuck is going on.
2.15 am on Tuesday 1st I experience a heart attack, and call 000 for ambulance who take me to rpa itc unit where I sit in the waiting room till 7am. Then they check into the overnight ward give me three saline drips and 10mg Xanax tablets to ease withdrawal agony and heart palpations. They also talk a lot to me especially one nurse who advises I seek rehab. The police come again and question me. When they say I can go I rip off my bands and hospital dress and bail from the clinic. I canít afford for my parents to find out due to doctor privileges and I canít afford the Medicare fees. Iím sure by now they are after me but I feel lot better and have thrown out all evidence of existing GBL.
I leave the clinic at 11 pm and buy 3 PowerAde as recommended. Iím now going to the bathroom regularly and flushing the sodium levels out of my system. Iím also eating health foods as recommended and the more I eat the better my insides feel. My heart rate has dropped to a manageable level and Iíll never touch GBL again period.
At the time I was on antidepressants, alcohol and G all to help deal with my grandmotherís death one month before.
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